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= I'm Gonna Make You Tap Bitch =
Sunday, February 29, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/29/2004 02:34:00 PM |
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=======Driving Is So Fun =======
Just came back from driving!! it was real fun man haha i did not stall the engine to the surprise of the instructor, He was saying he expected me to stall the engine cause i told him i had no driving experience, well you can't alwayz tell the truth right? But anyway i'm not that good at it, my legs feel very stiff especially when releasing the clutch, need to be more relax man. Sometimes the car was quite jerky too, and my stopping isn't that good, like very scare to brake, scare to stall the engine so i clutch in quite early ahha.need to practice more man, but anyhow love to drive manual cars, damn exciting and fun!!!! Can't wait to get my licence then my honda civic eg6, then blast my techno music haha beng? well yes, im a beng =) haha, at first i thought instructor was quite fierce, but very soon we were talking about 4D, betting soccer. Haha because i lost my PDL can, after driving awhile he asked me to stop by the side and he went to check the customer service counter see if anyone found my PDL, wah luckily someone did man. He was like wah your so lucky, must take down your PDL no. and buy 4d haha, Chinese are so superstitious!!! Ya and so we started talking about gambling.
Yesterday was one of the best days i ever had..................................Studying and playing all in a day, this is what i called study hard and played hard. *big smile* Shall do this more often man.Hopefully can do well for my exams =)
I will be taking a break from blogging to study so see you guys around ya, Shall blog after terms.....Off i go to study!!!
Currently Listening To : Darude - Sandstorm
Friday, February 27, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/27/2004 11:50:00 AM |
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=HoW cAn I gO tHrOuGh ThE tErMs?=
Yes i ponned school today to study.Sigh just did a bit of integration, really tough man integration by parts, sigh i don't think i be ready for the coming terms. Bestie just msg me saying she got an A for the maths test, just last week at fun o rama she was saying how difficult the paper was. I hate you best, why are so good in your studies! haha kidding, you have got to teach me how you get those A's ya. anyway congrats best, guess you worked hard for it =)
On a more serious note, wonder how i can go through the terms man, theres just so much to revise, don't think i can revise finish. Always wonder how people get their A's in Jc. I do get my A's, but my A's are A level passes while the others such as students in SCONE is the grade A. Oh well guess i just try my best and try to do the qns........I pray everything goes as plan!
Currently Listening To : Jazmine - Makes Me Go mmm (Dance Radio Mix)
Thursday, February 26, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/26/2004 08:32:00 PM |
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=ThE pReSsUrE iS rIsInG=
Sigh don't feel like blogging today, been such a tiring day, had like 3 periods of physics, then another 2 after school! so tiring man, luckily theres kof to pump me up and yes i just came back from my gaming session! haha did not quite play my best been trying out combos and supercancels, haha i talked like as if kof is like a competitive sport or something =) i think i am so addicted to it man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway school was alright, just that im beginning to feel the pressure for the coming terms, got to do well, i just have to! I feel so wierd today! just so wierd like something is missing from my life. argh!!! Have not felt the sense of achievement since pri school i guess, been slacking since sec1, no matter how i try to motivate myself i just can't. I just can't. I don't even know what i'm typing about. Met up with joy today ( someone going to call me real soon and scold me, but heck) went to talk to her for awhile, it has been quite awhile since i last met her, great to find out shes doing quite alright now, in fact i think shes doing great. =)
Oh i called mingyi too, sigh been losing contact with lots of people but at least now i can find out little bits of their life and know how they are getting on with their life. Promos like in a few days time, have to finish my revision!! guess i shall go first ya take care everyone.....................................
"Keep On Walking"
Currently Listening To : Initial D OST - Rage In Your Dream
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| :: Ashley | | 2/26/2004 06:29:00 PM |
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=KoF fOrEvEr=
Sigh kof seems to be the only thing there for me when im down................................................................................
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/24/2004 01:36:00 PM |
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=Sentosa!=
Hey guys, i am now blogging from school, been such a tiring day man. It must be from yesterday.Was so tired that i slept during maths lect, did not want to sleep but really could not take it anymore. Differential equation is killing me man, luckily it is not in the terms, but still got to study for it. Sigh really want to do well for the terms man, sick and tired of failing and getting grades that i cannot be proud of. Must get my act together......fast......real fast!!
Anyway, yesterday was too tired to blog, so blog about yesterday events today. haha . school was only until 10 cause of fun o rama the school decided to give us student a break. I headed home first before meeting the class and the junior class at habour front. We were like some gang or something, had like 25 people can, this time the junior class really damn onz. Anyway when we reached there, we headed straight for the beach, the guys went to the toliet to change but the gals walked down a little to the other nearest toliet cause the girls toliet was under renovation or something. While we were changing, there was these 2 hot bikini babes in the guys toliet too haha, i mean they were hot! we were all stun can,i mean girls in guys toliet? and pretty somemmore, guess it was too much for the junior class guys to handle haha they were like talking about them non stop man.
After changing we walked down somemore to meet the girls, really fun playing beach volley ball for a while, swimming in the sea. It has been a long time since i actually swam in the sea, really salty and stuff, felt dirty too but other than that it was fun. Me sarah and jason swam to the slight a bit further out of the sea first, really tiring man, could not put my head under water cause had my contacts on. And sarah swims really fast man! me and jason had a hard time trying to catch up. haha i just lay on the platform and close my eyes, really relaxing man. I decided to head back to where all out belongings were in case someone try to steal our stuff. So i borrowed jason's mat and sun tanned there, it was really hot man. As im typing this my skin is still red and painful, think i got sun burned. haha. but still it was relaxing,think shall do it more often. =) At about 3, we decided to pack our stuff and head back, some went to shower and we only left the place at 4.30. haha
Anyway after sentosa went home to get my stuff before heading to orchard library to do some studying with my bestie. Really did my work can, i have never done so much work since like what primary school? haha done like half of the long qns for charge particles , and all of the mcq. Really moving in full gear now man haha, cannot afford to slack. And thanks bestie for pushing me to study, its like seeing you pushing yourself to get the ans really motivate me man hahaha =) Studied till like 9pm before heading hm, was really tired man, my eyes kept on closing, think i better start resting early, don't study till too late man. anyway got to go now, shall blog again tm cya =)
Monday, February 23, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/23/2004 11:17:00 PM |
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=TiReD=
Todays been a tiring but exciting and fun filled day with the juniors haha shall post my entry tm gona sleep now gd nite everyone!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, February 22, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/22/2004 09:49:00 PM |
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=All emotion into 1 funfilled event!=
Sometimes when people try to be the leader, it just pisses me off. Why can't you just let people do what they are suppose to do instead of telling them what to do at something you are not good at? I got to experience this first hand was piss off with a certain someone.
21/2
Anyway Yest , 21/2 was filled with all sort of emotion. It was the acjc fun o rama!! happy sad, angry,tired, exhuasted, pissed off, irritated every emotion word you can think of, it felt by someone in the fun fair.Guess what kelvyna said was true, i will always remember fun o rama! All the fun, the tension and the frightening moment that the class went through will definately be in my head for life! Can you imagine 1 day before the fun fair, you realised you accidently froze 3 trays of your food and you still have to make 3 more trays. With no extra ingredients, we had to rush to buy it, rush in the making of the tiramisu, Rehan even had to stay over night to complete it, heard they only complete it at 2. Sorry guys, had to leave early.
Way before the making of the tiramisu, we had to decide on what we were going to do. We had our arguement displeasure, our last minute changes before we finally settled for the tiramisu. Everything was so last min, it was crazy! The preparation for fun o rama was the worst! we had to like donate things pay and pay, pay for the ingredients, pay for the cake, pay for the ice cream, can food, drinks etc i think i donated like 150 to the school man, ohh well i guess it was worth every single cent considering the amount of fun we had as a class =)
At first it did not start well when a teacher came to try our tiramisu, she said she heard from other teachers that our stall tiramisu was very good, well thats beside the point, the point is we did not know how to cut the tiramisu! and she even said it looked disgusting(itz true it looked disgusting). But we soon decide on the size of it, the way to cut it and everything was beginning to look good. Soon more and more people came in, and the hub was really packed, i guess cause it is the only air-con place! haha well many people came to buy from us cause it taste damn good, im not trying to boast but it is really good, all thanks to rehan's chef and the class cooking skills haha. I heard there was this woman that bought the whole tray! But there was this other woman i heard was being a bitch, ohh well thats business rite, you meet all sort of people, just got to live with it, as the saying goes, " the customer is always right"
We were trying to pull people to come and buy the tiramisu, convincing them that it is safe and in fact very delicious. Thankful most of them bought. Oh we had coke, root beer and sprite float too which was quite good too, i mean how difficult can it be to just pour the coke and add the icecream rite haha. and of course we had the graveyard and all the fancy names for the icecream ahaha, i think the graveyard was the ultimate man!! One of the "best" ice cream we had haha. anyway it was really fun walking around visiting stall by stall, meeting friends and all was really exciting. Met old friends, sec school friends. Anyway i would like to thank everyone who supported 2sg4 stall, people like Fiona who gave us spag form her stall and came over to help promote too, and jolin too! she was trying to give us a hand thanks man. And this girl which i 4got her name, shes john friend whom john ask her to cm and she just helped us,help really must thank her man, your a very nice person! and of course 2sg4 papa, weize's cute lil brother and her sister came to help up too thanks man. Oh our class mascot came too, and rehan asked her to buy from us haha shall not say her name later it spread then our class jialat already haha
Anyway it was a great day filled with fun and satisfaction. If only we can have another funfair without the cost that would be the best man haha after everything was damn exhuasted can, went dinner with pris 4 a while at kovan bk and we took this damn cool shot. Its below haha cool right! Did not know my camera had this function. After that went to ps to play kof but damn the people there were too good, and there was this huge crowd watching people play so decided to leave the place. Was with bunny for a while talking and stuff before heading home, she went to meet hungyi i think hehe yup yup. Ahh my legs are still aching can! The whole event made me so exhuasted, and it did not help that i had to help Mr how carry all the drinks for the day to 3 different stall making several trips, there were like 100+ cartons of drinks man. What a day!
22/2
Met my bestie for awhile to study, really studied man i mean if a 2 S paper student is sitting infront of you studying you be motivated to study too rite. The only S paper i get to take is supplementary paper haha Anyway was studying in the library for awhile, could not find a place to study properly, the other places were too noisy so we went to the library. Anyway accompanied bestie to buy her grip for her hockey stick and met this guy that i always wanted to meet, jaron. Heard alot about him from people in vjc.
Walked back to the mrt station where she took a train to delta for her training and i was off to marina square arcade to play my kof, sigh still cannot do a move for dou-lon shit man, but oh manage to do ash crimson super cancel haha guess now shall use iori benimaru and ash! Think im addicted to kof man, shit got to stop playing, im like throwing my money all onto the video game machines haha
K k anyway gona stop writing already my hands are getting tired, now fun o rama is ovcer, have to get down to serious studying, i want to do well for the terms. Going to study hard now man. Read Rehan's bruce lee book, really inspired man. He said something like whatever you do you must never set a limit, if not you will always be bounded by your limits, therefore you will not succeed. If i have the time i shall type the story out =) going to sleep now, have not been sleeping well these few days......................... Off i go into dreamland, away from the harsh reality of this world!
Curently Listening To : Dj Seh Kia - Erotic Mix
Doesn't this picture look as if it is one person? hehe ;)
Friday, February 20, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/20/2004 05:46:00 PM |
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=HaVoC NiGhT (Part 2)=
Hey guys!!! at siwei's house now, my whole class like doing tiramisu for tomorrow Fun o rama, which is a funfair by name, but its really a funDfair. The school is like making us poor students pay for the entire event, we have to contribute like $100 worth of cakes, $2 each student for the drinks and many more. WTH! oh well thank god its tm, since i paid so much i might as well have fun tm right. We are sort of rushing through our tiramisu, yesh, our class is very last min, but thats what bond us together i think hahaha. I mean we organise a bbq class party in like 15min? haha
Anyway onto the happier things, went to cheeky's last night, havoc man i tell you. Partied till like 3 then everyone went to eat bak gu teh nearby, was great since i was super hungry. Almost everyone was there, guess i already mention them below yup yup thanks guys for making the night great =) sigh really do not know what to blog about, seems like everything happened so fast yest. Oh at first i did no intend to sleep last night, but damn, fell asleep accidentally and when i woke up it was 7.10. Took my time to change and stuff and took a bus to school, when i reached school realise that there was no teacher to book me or what, so i just strolled into school, hid in the classroom for my classmates to return back. Was kinda scary since it was all dark and i was alone in the classroom, and was scare that teacher might catch me haha. Anyway school was short, extremely short man, when they came back from assembly, Mr How settled accounts with us and we were off to do our fun o rama stuff, which meant we were release and my whole class went to have breakfast together at al ameen.
Aiya im just lazy to think about what to write shall stop here now hehe, hope tomorrow goes well, we are kinda of having a slight problems with the tiramisu and other stuff. *pray hope that everything ends well* anyway i would like to thank the people who have been sweet to me and been encouraging me, Thanks Bestie!!!! Thanks zhanghui, though u maybe in aust now but you still encourage me when you were in s'pore thanks man! thanx Fiona, peggy and those who have been a true friend. I cherish you people alot =)
"Real treasure lies not in what can be seen, but
what cannot be seen. Real love lies not in what
is done and known, but in what that is
done but not known. Love sometimes needs not much
words... "
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| :: Ashley | | 2/20/2004 12:39:00 PM |
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=HaVoC NiGht!!!!!!!! (Part 1)=
It ended last night. Haiz, Disappointed? sad? yeah. Maybe its better we separate for while first. Somehow we started with me sending her home then it ended with me sending her home too. Ironic? Haha I don't know. I will certainly miss you dear. Take care pls, and I'm not ruling out the fact we will be together again next time.
I'm really sorry. I been such a bastard. As you fell down the stairs chasing me, I just left you there. Why did I do that? If I could turn back time I would not run away, I would help u up. Even though you were hurt you tried ur best to run after me. I did not want to run, My heart just shattered when I saw you fell, but something just pulled me away. Haiz I'm really sorry. I know whatever I say now will be of no use, but I really did not mean it. Believe me dear, I just want to rub ur tummy for you now,Nurse the wound you suffered. How ironic since I was the one who inflicted the wounds huh. Take care dear, Its good bye for now, but not forever.
Went to cheeky's.......
Last night was a havoc night man, haha went to cheeky monkeys with the usual havoc group. Navin fiona peggy serene(have to mention this is her 1st time clubbing wah!!! HAVOC MAN! haha =p) Uma Rehan erica ngyun shameer(who happens to be in my bestie senior class haha so qiao right) the place was quite alright music was great, and Fiona has a thing for the dj! haha anyway brfore going to cheeky monkeys something happened, shall blog about it tonight, have no time now, going to meet beng to get the fun o rama tixs for peg then off to siwei's to prepare tiramisu for tm fun o rama. Im so tired slept only for 2 hrs den had to go to school already....and i just came back form the gym!! arghhh been such a havoc week man! haha anyway shall blog later on! cya
Thursday, February 19, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/19/2004 07:23:00 PM |
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=HaVoC!!!!!!!=
Today going to be a havoc day, YEAH! BTW i passed my basic theory!!! one step closer to getting my licence haha...ohh well itz going to be a great day today...shall post later on
Sunday, February 15, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/15/2004 07:50:00 PM |
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=WhAt A gReAt DaY!!=
Great day today man!!!! =)
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| :: Ashley | | 2/15/2004 11:05:00 AM |
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=Departure Is Part Of Life=
Yest was a day filled with joy, tears and sadness. Woke up at 5.30am to meet ng yun at bukit panjang lrt and the rest of them at jurong mrt. We were going to the airport to send off zhanghui, a person well whom is quite dear to us, a person whom has made an impact in our life. I guess without her all of us will not know each other right i mean i got to know fiona, ng yun, beng, and many others through Zhanghui, she was really the one that brought us all together one clique, a havoc clique haha =p
Well anyway so we were at the airport, the train to the airport was one hell of a ride, navin and his jokes were constantly making us all laugh. haha. when we reached the airport the usual people were already there , together with a few of her rgs friends, was like some gang meeting or something haha so we talk and chatted like as if it was the last time, there was laughter at first, cracking jokes, smiles were everywhere, photos were taken. But very soon it was time for zhanghui to board the plane, we were still smiling at the enterance, than last words were said and soon enough tears of sadness came down, one of our friends, a person that made a big impact on each and everyone of our life is leaving us all, probably she might even be settling down there for good, this could even be our last goodbye. I do not know if i should be sad or happy, sad that now all about her are just memories spent with her and the group clubbing and havoc-ing, late nights out and stuff haha. Or should i be happy, happy that she is going aboard and its a new life for her, she can start afresh, she might even make it big over in Aust, the lifestyle might suit her perfectly, she might even find better friends or even better, a handsome, caring boyfriend in Aust, i mean zhanghui you wanted to try to experience being in love right haha =)
Sigh i do not why am i so like emotional, i guess i just hate people leaving, i hate changes. From young i always wanted things to stay the same, but i guess that cannot be possible. People move on, they carry on with their own life, making new friends. Yest at the airport when i saw ng yun and Fiona cried i saw something, how their tears were sincere, it was real, it came naturally, it was filled with love, lots of love, love for a friend. It made me realise that friendship is truly one of the most important thing in the world and we must thank god for all the friends around us. Cherish the friends around us cause we never know when they will be gone. Anyway it was great to receive an sms from Zhanghui yest. she was saying she finds it v.different in perth than compared to s'pore. Hope that she will get to know people soon, its like she alone there and yes im quite worried for her but i guess she being so socialable and all, she will make friends soon =) probably become some gang leader over there or something haha kidding =p anyway take care ya gal over in Perth!!!!!!!!!!! we will all miss you hehe =)
After sending zhanghui off we all took a bus took to marina parade to have breakfast was really hungry can ate like bak gu teh, beehoon with 2 pieces of chicken and kway chap, all adds us to $9 haha quite cheap right for 3 meals hehe. We soon left to coffeebean to sit down and talked for awhile. rehan driver came at 11.45 to picked rehan up and i took a lift to rehan's house before takin bus 75 to my house hehe From marina parade we reached holland at about 10 to 15min fucking fast man! If rehan still had the evo, my god i dare not imagine how fastit will take man, probably 5-8min haha anyway went back home to take a rest felt very tired , after which took a bus down to jasmin hse to meet her. The jam at orchard was fucking long, fucking piss man! i guess it must be because of V-day man...sigh
Anyway V-day was quite bad, qurralled and stuff again sigh but eventually patched back, it always the same routine sigh. Anyway after that we went to marine parade fish and co, i just love fish and co man, the food great there but kinda ex though hehe. After eating we then walked back from marina parade to her house which was damn far can. Went back to her house to get my present then took a bus home. A bus 36a came, and i thought it will not go to orchard so i gave it a miss haha fuck man that was like last bus so took a cab down to orchard and waited for the nightrider. Met ng yun and beng at bukit panjang later on, wah slacking session man went back at around 3.30 great to have friends who are your neighbours haha =)
Woah what a day man!!!! anyway guys even though zhanghui is not in s'pore, we meet up and havoc k!!!!!! just like zhanghui say, the spirit of havoc still live on hahahaha shes really funny think of such things , havoc ah! =p
Currently Listening To : Dj Valium - Spirit Of Yesterday
FRIENDSHIP
Whether by strange coincidence
or divine guidance,
in the course of our life
we cross paths with many people.
Some move towards us,
others move away.
Some we choose to remember,
others to forget.
But with a special few
we seem to have no choice,
for each has made an impact
on the other, and their
memory will live on forever.
These people we call friends—
you, to me, are such a one.
– Dick Innes
Friday, February 13, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/13/2004 09:44:00 AM |
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=bEiNg SiCk SuCkS=
Argh i woke up today to find my whole body aching, my chest and arms r hurting i guess its from the gym was really pushing damn hard for the past 2 days, putting all my anger into lifting weights. I am also having a very bad flu sorethroat cough and headache, must be because i have not been sleeping well these few days, lots of things at the back of my mind. SIGH! i just realise since i have this blog i been typing out all my fustration, all the things im unhappy about on this blog. I guess im very different when im outside than when im typing my blog. I tend to be very happy and smiley when im with my friends, cause i really just want to have fun, havoc and forget everything, it so good to be with the company of friends!
Zh leaving tm, sigh one less person who is damn onz, zh i will miss you. Must try and come back often k, than call the usual people we go havoc. Was really fun having you around man, don't havoc too much in aust ! and don't fag too much haha btw i think over there they don't have sams so you better go DFS to buy man haha anyway its cheaper =P but just don't fag too much ya, take care!
anyway gtg and study alrdy take care guys =)
Thursday, February 12, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/12/2004 08:06:00 PM |
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=LoVe Is So StRaNgE=
Sigh this week has been quite crazy for a number of reasons, have not been feeling well and also did not feel like blogging. So tired of everything, Love is so strange it makes people do the craziest things, things that i thought you will never do but you did it. I was shocked, surprised angry. Why did you do that for, why did you call my friends house at 12am, why do u call my house at 3am, just to make sure im a sleep and not outside? sigh i have to say this cause it is in me for very long, This is crazy, its driving me nuts, on top of the pressure i have in school and many other things.
V-day ard the corner sigh why must there be V-day, i mean if a couple love each other everyday should be like V-day, i guess its for people to date the one they think is special at this moment. I feel someone may love a person alot this min but as time goes on the love fade, and you begin to treat him or her like trash, both sides suffer. So morale of the story, do not get into a relationship at this age.I know it does not happen to minority and i mean very very small percentage of people actually do find true love and get married in the end at this age but we are still childish when it comes to love. True love should not be calling each other everyday, every min, every sec, hoping he or she is not cheating on you or flirting, but rather being able to feel each other love even when he or she is not there.Calls should come only naturally, both parties taking turns to call, the shorter the conversation the better, its better to let the other party know you bit by bit. Slowly exposing more of yourself rather than just telling him or her everything. Trust in a relationship is the most important, whats there to carry on a r/s without trust.
Today as i was walking up the stairs with Weize for phy pract, weize was feeling quite disappointed or down, could see it. Asked him whats wrong and he said," i'm disappointed in myself." I know exactly how he is feeling. Both of want to do well in our studies, we know we can do it, we want to do it, but we are just too slack. We can't get down to business, too many distraction. I feel so fustrated!!!! why am i ike that, i really want to get down to business, no more playing, its time that i mature and mold my own future. My future is at stake, i want to do what i love, Engineer in the automotive industry, i have to get there. WAKE UP ASHLEY WAKE UP!!!! I was reading a book on the mechanics on cars that i borrowed from the library, SIGH! the things i know about engine is just the surface of what i need to know if i am to go into the field. Its the basic of all basic. The internal combustion engine and how it works is just one of the small topic in the book, and even if i know how it works they have much more infomation about engines, also theres the section on turbocharger and supercharger where they explain in real details how it works, how supercharger the belt or chain is connected to the engine crankshaft and then it how it is driven but the exhuast gases, and theres the Naturally aspirated engines which is a tuned up for cars with no turbos, and many many others!! argh, am i really cut out for this, i want to make mechanics of cars my life!!! well guess i got to be patient and slowly read and understand it, though it may take some time but i know if i keep on working towards it i will reach it one day........
i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt
i wear my crown of shit
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
Currently Listening To : Groove Coverage - Last Unicorn
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/10/2004 02:30:00 PM |
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=ExHaUsTeD=
Hey, first time blogging from school. haha my class like left with only 5 people. Rehan , shao, siwei wez and peg all went to cedar to sell their fun o rama tix,wonder hows their sale. Sigh im so exhausted from everything, the day ben so tiring, going to have pe in like 2 periods time and then bowling training arghh...wonder how long i can take it man. V-day around the corner got to find present but i just do not know what to get , or rather what to put in that box, think ashley think! My mind is spinning feel terrible its like im going to faint or something, guess im just mentally drain man.....................................i just want all these to end.........................................................................
--- They say it takes a minute to find someone special, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, an entire life time to forget them --- *big smile* =)
Sunday, February 08, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/08/2004 03:46:00 PM |
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=Euro Beats=
Im in love with euro techno, those para para kind yup yup call me beng but i love those songs. I want my priscilla album!! but i just can't find it, i have the feeling she only has singles, i really want to see what other nice songs she has like love is in danger, new love etc so many nice euro techno but i can't find the songs on imesh or limewire. There is oda- face to face, ace - moon child and many others, sigh i guess i need to go to hmv to buy the super euro elbum but it costs like 60+ cause its like imported and i find no point in buying albums esp if u can download from the net haha, yesh im a user of pirated items!!! =) Just came back from gym so tiring, going to do my work now, have to do well for the terms, gp was fine, summary could not find the points though but the rest were manageble anyway gtg take care guys =)
Currently Listening To : Groove Coverage - Poison
Your cruel device
Your blood, like ice
One look could kill
My pain, your thrill
I wanna love you but I better not touch
I wanna hold you but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you but I want it too much
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Your mouth, so hot
Your web, I'm caught
Your skin, so wet
Black lace on sweat
I hear you calling and it's needles and pins
I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't wanna touch you but you're under my skin
I wanna kiss you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Saturday, February 07, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/07/2004 10:46:00 PM |
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=Slackers=
ARGH!! having a damn bad headache.......................fuck.....................hate it when i get this feeling..mayb its time to stop...anyway great slackin session with rehan sunil charles and yiwen..yiwen as usual super talk cock u're damn funny can yiwen haha anyway you guys are great company and really great talking to all of you again. And yes!! another great slacking session at our very own newton park...though that justin did not come haha cause he claim to have hist test on mon, who the fuck studies on sat for a hist test on mon haha, justin next time no more excuses ya! =)
Friday, February 06, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/06/2004 09:13:00 PM |
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=....I aM sO tIrEd....=
Tm is gp term exam wonder how will I fare hope i can do well, my compre of late has been well alright,at least im passing, got to get abit higher though. Argh so stress maybe i just go read gp package or something just to get my mind to think and maybe absorb some knowledge. School was super tiring today, and plus the fact i was having a slight fever did not help. Had mass PE today , my flu was quite bad did not know how i manage to survive the torturous mass pe, was like really could not move anymore. The 6rounds ard the track was ok but the worse part was that we ran 2rounds first than had to do exercises like push up sit ups squats and a whole lot of stuff than we went for our 4rounds under 8min run, what the hell man, i almost fainted can after PE my body was so hot and i knew i must have developed a fever man. Felt really horrible during lessons esp physics and maths, whole body was emitting heat like no body business.
After school went home to rest awhile before heading off to the driving centre for my basic theory test haha, was easier than i expected. But this fucker that sat for the basic theory test last time used the test book that i was using purposely ticked all the wrong ans haha damn bastard man. heard wilson was damn lucky the people that used his book before all ticked the right ans for him and zhiqiang too haha. Met david chua at the driving centre so talked to him and he was taking the same test as i was. Well all went well, i think i should have no problem passing it , now time for the advance theory haha. But better not b so confident later the result come back and i fail then that will be how jag man haha.
Anyway got to go and sleep now really tired, tm gp test and im like having a slight fever though it is better now but still have abit of a headache. Sorry zh and rehan sigh i really really really want to join you all tm but fucked up got to be somewhere else sigh really sorry k guys, argh!! why is my life so fuck up! Gd nite !
Currently Listening To : Stratovarius - Destiny
Thursday, February 05, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/05/2004 05:39:00 PM |
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=Reflection=
Valentine day is around the corner i have not gotten presents yet sigh i might even go empty handed, nah just kidding. Just 1yr ago, we were laughing joking everything seems so perfect, we had our arguments every week but it would be solve the next day. It is definately a great 1yr though there were ups and down. Now im j2 u graduated things are abit diff i will not have as much time for you as last yr, i set a new goal that is to succeed in life, no more am i going to struggle just to get that A pass, while others are aiming for the A grade.
Well we may have change abit during the 1yr guess valentine day we have to renew our love ya and i guess its time we become mature and handle things maturely and sensibly we aren't kids anymore. Frankly i really do not know what to write or what you want me to write im just trying to think of things as i write but i just can't, well mayb the times spent at esplande will always be remembered and how we got together and stuff, those were indeed sweet memories. AHH give up i really can't think of anymore things to write about us. I know you will scold me for this but nvm i am ready to receive your phone call.
Its time we begin to think what are we going to do with out life, are we going to chase our dreams of becoming someone, or are we just going to wait for one another, tell you the truth i will chase my dream, i do not want anyone to hold me back. I want to be able to support my family in the future giving them good lives, esp my kids, making sure they never have to worry financially, never ever want my kids to experience what im experiencing now, how hard it is to ask money from my dad, all the things he promise are all empty promises, Furthermore im like how embarress to get money from him, ohh well.
The way i look at things definately have change since 3yrs ago when my dad left us, for the first time i felt something bad has happen to my family,my mum still cannot get over it though i sort of expected it, believe or not ard sec1 or sec 2 i began having dreams that my family was coming apart, something in me keep telling me my dad has an affair, something in me keep telling me that one day something bad will happen to us, my family. I try to act as if im happy my dad left us, well its true to some extend, cause he never showered me with love or spent much of his time with us, my mum was alwayz the one, picking me up from my god mum house whether it was rain or shine. My dad on the other hand would be happily drinking away with his friends, i guess thats guys for you ya, even now i treat my friends as veyr very impt people esp rehan sunil charles and justin, but definately when my i settle down, its going to be a different story, my kids would be the most important followed by friends.
Now whenever i see someone being so close to their dad i get jealous, i keep thinking why can't i be like them, or when i see a very nice dad like my ex sec3 sec4 physics tutor MR Lim i began to wonder, why can't my dad have such patience and don't lose his cool like Mr Lim, I cannot say my childhood is filled my sadness and anger there are happy times, i still have photos where my dad spent time with us, its just that he does not do it so often. Anyway im 18 already, i have to lead my own life, and i have lots of problems at hand, have to handle it one by one, no matter how difficult it is i will press on, i will never fail just as long i keep on trying and do my best. The matters maybe take time to solved but i know one day it will.
Did not want to type out my family problems, well not really problems its like really long time ago but i guess its ok for people to know, im not the type that will keep things to myself. I mean so what if i lost my dad, life must still go on right. Take as a message god is trying to tell me, never to be like him, at least now i know how it feels to have your dad leave you. It may even be a motivation for me to work harder , think harder, think of new ideas for businesses and most importantly to give my kids next time a great and unforgetable childhood. Lets pray i live up to my promise *pray*
"I may walk slowly, but i am walking forward and not backwards, i will reach my goal in a matter of time"
Currently Listening To : Lil Kim - Peaches And Cream
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/04/2004 08:40:00 PM |
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=Rehan's and Bertrand's birthday=
Today went to school as usual and getting ready to strip Rehan but that was not meant to be cause we did not have the time to do it in class, haha and ohh it was bertrand's birthday too! Though I do not know you well but happy birthday ya!!!!! Anyway he got stripped man in the void deck haha , it was like we all rush to see him getting stripped by everyone man. And oh there was this j1 girl that like bertrand n her friends were trying to matchmake her with bert haha and joses was suppose to help. Anyway charles than said," if the j1 saw abigail, she would definately have to shut the fuck up and just step aside man." haha which is quite true i guess.
Today went out with rehan to orchard walked like the whole of orchard with him haha the fellowship of the brothers all had something on, justin sailing, sunil tuition and charles had arts night. Well tm Arts night should i go or should i go and practice my basic theory, i seem to lack lots of practise man haha ohh well maybe i shall go for my practice at bukit batok. It was really a enjoyable day with rehan , walked and walked and walked, looked at jiujitsu books and physics too at borders. FUCK MAN! there was this book solely on gravitation and it was 1000+pages, it was so detailed that can't be detailed anymore, me and rehan could not believe what we were seeing, i mean, how can anyone be so intellectual to actually derive and come out with such a theory man *amazing* We studied jiujitsu for a while as in the grapples and stuff really useful man. Anyway both of us are thinking of signing up at Ch'i , some martial art centre own by robin leong we went there, which was at borders to check out the prices, it was pretty reasonable and we saw robin leong and alan wu there with another guy, i must say alan wu looks good man. Really want to learn mixed martial art man!
While i was going home so qiao i met boonseer , rach and pris . Was quite shocked to see them man, have not seen them for quite a while, wah i must say rach 's complexion is great man. Sigh pimples coming out think i better go and do something about it go for facial or something haha. Yesh i can be quite girly but thats me! Said hi to them talked to them for like 2min or something and im off to my bus stop. Oh there was a guy with the 3 of them too, think it was ravin, pris your neighbour right, sorry ya never say hi to you, anyway though i don't know you but nvm, hi! !!!! =)
Sigh sat Zh farewell and rehan birthday dinner fuck i can't go course i have to accompany my gf, sigh! sorry guys don't know if i can make, but i try ya the most i run away and meet u at lau pa sat or something, zh i try to ya don't worry i tik of something =) gona be very sad if i miss your farewell man and rehan's dinner too......................................already sad just thinking of it......
Currently Listening To : Baracuda - I Leave The World Today
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/03/2004 10:35:00 PM |
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=HoLy NiGhT=
sorry this gona be a quick entry, decided to blog abit of what happen today b4 sleeping, today all of us during training were very holy, guess we read the bible b4 cming for training ya haha, i went up to level 13, tze how level 10, xiangwei level 8, and of course we have our grandmaster, invinicible almost god eugene with the highest rank of level 23 haha nothing much to say today gona run rehan's birthday tm.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU SLUT !!! hhaha =p
Currently Listening To : Kelis - Milk Shake
My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard,
and their like
is better than yours,
damn right is better than yours,
i can teach you,
but i have to charge
I know you want it,
the thing that makes me,
what the guys go crazy for.
They lose their minds,
the way i wind,
i think its time
Monday, February 02, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/02/2004 09:52:00 AM |
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=GoNe ThRu HeLl =
Yest was one hell of a quarral man, what is to become of us now. Im still in confusion, I want to take a break, everything happening around is in a mess, i m in a mess! Pls now all i hope is you are home safe and not wander around orchard alone at 12, don't be stupid and do stupid things, the last thing i want to know when we part is that you are a smart girl, not someone who does stupid things that will scare me. Its sad that things have to end this wat but i do not want it either, i know i am to be blame for most of it happening but i just cannot control it, what do u want me to do. Now its over i guess i have time to sort things out and get my life proper.
Yest drinking session with zhanghui, ng yun siwei and choi was quite depressing, i mean i was depress so sorry guys to ruin the mood ya but they were nice people zhanghui was as cheerful as ever making jokes and stuff haha you're the girl! anyway i was feeling really sick so me and ng yun left first cause we both stay at bukit panjang yup yup. Later on i hope we still be goin to sentosa haha today gona be fun. Itz a brand new day, brand new start, a brand new beginning. To start off the day, im going to be a good boy and buy food for my mum and sis! =)
Listening to Rnb songs now, it really hyped me up to go clubbing, i just want to club till i go crazy! Dance the night away to RnB , techno and Trance. Forget all my problems, leave them behind, start afresh! Clubbing takes away all my problems, on the dance floor, music blasting bodies touching, everyone just don't give a fuck, i don't give a fuck !!! Drink and drink and drink, dead to the world, do not care what others thing of you, do what you want, no one can control you!!!
anyway i must give a big thank you to my bestie who was there for me when i was going into depression thanx man, i alwayz thought people are stupid to go into depression because of love, now i understand why, it just happens naturally, you won't know its happens till it happens, you can't control it. Thanx bestie! you're the best of the best of the best !!!! =)
Currently Listening To : Mis-Teeq - Scandalous
Hot stuff, head to toe
Where you go, no one knows
You smile playing the dough and we ain't even close yet
Solid as a rock
How many ways can you hit the spot?
Show me what you got 'cos we ain't even close yet
You got me feening and you got me feeling weak
Listen as I speak cos I'm careful as I creep
You got me going crazy and you know I can't sleep
No fortune your moves and you hypnotise me
You got me trembling like a little baby girl
You're so special, you're like diamonds and pearls
You got me spinning and you got me in a twirl
You're my number one baby and you come to rock my world
You're dangerous
Just get it up
The way you move so scandalous
It's all about the two of us
A one night stand just ain't enough
I need some stimulation baby
A little conversation maybe
You got me spinning out like crazy
There goes my baby
Sunday, February 01, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 2/01/2004 12:50:00 AM |
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=fUcK iT aNd sCrEw It =
I don’t know who to trust no surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you
Tension is building inside steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me
Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me
-From The Inside
It is just me and my KOF me and my KOF me and my KOF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is just me and my KOF me and my KOF me and my KOF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is just me and my KOF me and my KOF me and my KOF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is just me and my KOF me and my KOF me and my KOF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is just me and my KOF me and my KOF me and my KOF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is just me and my KOF me and my KOF me and my KOF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is just me and my KOF me and my KOF me and my KOF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is just me and my KOF me and my KOF me and my KOF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KOF is my best friend whenever im down, it will be there waiting for me to drown my sorrows wat would i do without kof man..well actually there r a few others who are really nice and gd to me, alwayz lending me their listening ear , rehan charles etc and ya you noe who you are ya bestie! thanx bestie! =) other then that itz just me and my KOF........nothing else!!!!!!!!!!!
oh ya and my techno and trance !!!! to drown my sorrows.i don't give a fuck if people say trance and techno sucks, to me it is the best genre !!!! whenever im down it fills me wif rage n energy, cut me off from the world, transport me into another world so i forget my problems , the beat of the music, the fast pace of it, the women voice in techno (notice techno they never use men voice) ya dj tiesto and gang never fails to energise me, everytime when i do not feel like goin to the gym a small 5 to 10min of paul van dyk, dj tiesto definately pikes me up! trance and techno rules man!!!!!!!
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