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= I'm Gonna Make You Tap Bitch =
Thursday, March 29, 2007
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| :: Ashley | | 3/29/2007 10:42:00 PM |
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=There Wasn't Me Or You, There Was Only Us==
Went delta on Sunday. It was Squid's last match before deciding if she should continue playing for SRC. If she stop, then I guess it would be my last time at Delta. Sigh
That day it felt like we were together again. I thought we were back to our JC days. I felt 18 all over again. I miss going to delta to support you :)
Remember The Times Spent At Orchard Library Studying? Haha :)  We Look So Alike!! :)  Squid and I stumbled upon a book that says people with similar features are very likely to fall in love with each other. Haha Or rather they are kinda made for each other. Something along those lines. Can't really remember specifically though. Haha
I remember when I was in J2, I would be down at delta rather often to watch her many hockey matches. In the past, I would just pass by delta and not give a second look. Now everytime I pass by delta to visit my grandma, it brings back memories. Loads of memories.
Sigh!!!!
National school hockey finals. It was Vjc against Acjc. Seriously, I didnt know who to support. Everyone was teasing me cause somehow words got around and they knew me and squid had something going on. After Winning Her Finals  I still remember those days vividly. We were really happy together Haha I would go down to delta to support her with no complaints.
Haiz.
Now even though we are not together already but somehow I still miss her. I miss her so much so I just don't want to let go. Rather I can't let go. Somehow suddenly I feel when I was with her I kinda took things for granted.
Anyhow squid, you do know I love you alot still.
You're still the only one in my heart :)
Together At My Place Before Swimming!
 The Stupid Things We Did Together! Hahaha I love the times when we would go out in out school uniforms! Haha
How we would walk the whole of orchard doing nothing after which I would send you all the back to Lorong chuan! My goodness, that was insanely far! Hahahaha
The long lonely chilly bus ride back!
The piggy back rides I gave you and remember because of the piggy back ride you dropped your wallet on the floor? Hahaha
The times we went clubbing together. Remember Chicky Monkeys? HahaThe many times you gave me the long black face! Hhahaah And I had to endure it ok!
The uncountable "Love Bites" you gave me, and I mean literally love bites cause you really used your teeth to bite me so hard there were teeth marks all over my hands and shoulders. Haha and I had to try and hide it from my mum ok! Hahaha
Sigh, the past 2 years were crazy la, you stuck with me through the darkest period yet I let you down time and time again. Maybe thats why I prefer the break cause I really don't want to disappoint you anymore, you deserve better I guess, but I really still love you alot.
Yes, this entry is specially for you, and I know you have been going on and on about how I never blog anything about you. Haha so there you go, a long entry just for the special squidlet mc nugget. Hahhaha :) Before I Enlisted! :)  We stuck through Army! Yes Whole 2 Years of It! :)  Nothing Else Mattered. Just Us Living In Our Own World :)  Us In 2007  After all that we went through, I still love you always squid :)
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| :: Ashley | | 3/29/2007 09:29:00 PM |
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=Best Friend = No Trust=
Do you know Best friends can don't trust each other too?
Am I right? I don't know, you decide.
I'm just trying my best to help you but if you insist of being so stubborn there's really nothing I can do.
I'm only telling you cause you are my best friend, ok maybe only to me, and I don't want to backstab you, thats why I decided to tell you these. I was really hurt when you told me all that.
I'm just trying to help you.
Still, I'm here if you need me.
Just very disappointed.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
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| :: Ashley | | 3/27/2007 12:35:00 AM |
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=Work Work!=
1st day of work.
Same as Citibank.
Made to do outbound calls. This time, I had to try and get people to come for the workshop.
My goodness.
Haha, but then again, its fun, I don't have to squeeze with the working crowd, smooth traffic, wake up later. Awesome la!
Its kinda fun working at an events company cause you get to wake up later but the catch is you have to do loads of OT cause there are deadlines to be met.
I still want to work in the bank in the near future.
Somehow I thought of you as my buddy, after tonights conversation, I just don't feel like you treat me as one anymore. So who is to be blamed?
Thanks
"Run along....and be nice to the other kids!!!"
"But but....who is going to be nice to me?"
Friday, March 23, 2007
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| :: Ashley | | 3/23/2007 05:26:00 PM |
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=Jobless=
I'm still jobless.
Looking for a job.
I just can't be at home. If I'm at home with nothing to do, I will just sleep the entire day away, and I really mean the entire day!! Haha
Fucked up.
Its hard to satisfy everyone.
It really is.
Sigh, there's nothing significant thats happening in my life to blog about.
Bye for now.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
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| :: Ashley | | 3/21/2007 11:58:00 PM |
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=Stoning In The Train=
There's hope!! My data might be save afterall!! Yeah!!!
Still waiting for Rhys to get back to me, from what he told me most if not all should be able to recover! Hahhaa
Thanks to squid for introfucing me to Rhys! Awesome guy la! Hhaha
Training was great yesterday! Sparred with Dennis, and he fights really well. Fuck Got kicked in the head for the 1st time. Stunned. And I mean it felt....well painful! Hahha
The feeling is definately there. Suddenly it feels good to be punched at times.
And so its training again tomorrow! Haha
Btw something embarressing happened to me for the 2nd time! On Tuesday while going for training, I was still rather upset cause of the lost of my computer, Tab was actually sitting infront of me! The best part is I failed to notice her! I was looking at the small little TV screen infront of me....everywhere but at her. She was staring at me really hard and she said the woman next to her even laughed at my blurness! Hahha Fuck man! The funny thing was I tried to scan around cause somehow I got the feeling there was someone I knew. I still do not understand how could I miss Tab!!!! Felt so bad man!
The first time it happened to me was wif Sara! He was sitting infront of me from Douby Ghaut all the way to training! HahhaI only saw him when I was coming up the escalator and turned back cause I thought I saw a friend. Hahaha
I'm in a Daze/Stoning/What have you whenever I'm on the train going for training! Thats a fact! Haha
As I said before, some things are just not meant to be, and it was a mistake right from the beginning.
I'm sorry if I neglected you guys. I really didn't mean it.
I miss the 2 lovely girls in Australia alot! :)
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
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| :: Ashley | | 3/20/2007 06:11:00 PM |
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=Procrastination Kills=
Computer doctor coming to take a look at my com later on. I'm still mourning the lost of my darling computer that stuck with me through these 6years or more. Sigh.
You guys will never understand what I'm going through now. Sigh.
But then again, I'm slowly accepting the fact that my com is gone. The data will enver be recovered. I guess I can only blame myself for proscrastinating.
Learnt it the hard way.
Bt I finished season 2 of Grey's. Fucking sad.
Now I need Season 3.
And its time for training !!! :)
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| :: Ashley | | 3/20/2007 12:33:00 AM |
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=Dooms Day=
The world came crashing down on me when I restrated my com and ti just couldn't start. I knew it was doomsday for me.
Just for your info I had loads of pics that meant alot to me. Pics taken with friends when I was in army, my 21st birthday, etc etc. Its gona be hard recovering them from friends that I had sent to.
Fucked up. I'm now outside using my sister's com.
I'm so screw up! I hope the data can still be recovered.
Watched 300 today. Awesome show. It made me even more determined to train harder!
Haiz. I don't have the mood to blog. Fuck it.
Back to GAing!
Fuck you spyware! All you mother fuckers who created these shit you all can go rot in hell. You think anyone would be bother about your ads when 10s and 20s of different ads pops up! Go fuck yourself la.
Monday, March 12, 2007
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| :: Ashley | | 3/12/2007 04:55:00 PM |
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=Oldies=
I remember in the past I would tell my dad and mum how old fashion they were by listening to all the oldies songs.
Fast forward 8 years and you think I will be listening to even 'cooler' , more modern songs. However that isn't the case. Somehow I find myself listening to oldies myself, appreciating them even more.
Whats even more ironic, I'm even dancing to retro songs in the club.
Haha. Life is just so funny.
Maybe next time my kids will criticize my taste for music. Haha we shall see.
I truly believe it was a mistake right from the beginning.
Today Ashley became the chef. Haha Instead of eating out, I decided to cook. Ok its one of the very very rare times I decide to cook a meal for myself.
And guess what, it turned out really fine! In fact, I might even try to do this on a regular basis since I'm currently jobless/unemployed/useless to society/lazy/pig/slacker etc etc
Haha saves me loads of cash!! Anyway cooked black pepper beef, mee suan, fried veggies with scallops! Curry chicken! Wah, I love eating especially when I'm sad. I somehow found joy in cooking! Haha :)
Training soon Yay!!
You do realise this constitutes hugging right?
Shut up! I'm your person!
Haha
I can't live!!!! When living is without you!!
I can't give!!!! I can't give anymore!!!
Ok thats out of tune. Haha
Out!
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| :: Ashley | | 3/12/2007 04:54:00 PM |
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=Living In Yesterday's Channel=
I seriously can't stand my computer. I can't seem to get it working properly. Those who have been talking to me on msn should know that I'm always logging on and off! Argh! Its really really fustrating la! Sorry guys, it really isn't my fault. My com has some unknown virus and its irritating the hell out of me. Haiz.
Anyway yes its the same reason as to why I never update my blog frequently. Haha Anyway yesterday was Alison's birthday! Happy 21st Birthday girl!! Actually I almost didn't want to go cause I was really shagged out from the sparring in the gym. But I its Ali's birthday thus I moved my fat ass out of the bed, got changed and took a bus down to her place! Haha it was really crowded over there but there was really too many people to actually socialise. Just sat within the group and chatted with some of the AC people before leaving. Haha Was really tired out la.
So after the party, Yuka and rehan wanted to join some of the guys to cafe del mar, but they realised that there was a cover thus they decided to head down to caltex station to discuss plans as to where to go. Weird people, I mean can't you just discuss at the party, is caltex some cool hangout? Hahaha Anyway they are just not my kind of people. Was really pissed at them cause they were teasing rehan, just didn't want to say much.
Ah whatever la.
Been trying to find a job but seriously, I feel so lazy to get my ass to work. But then again, I need the cash badly. From the way I'm spending, I definately gona finished up all my savings la. Fuck it. Haha
Went to Reynard's house on saturday for gamblings session with steph and Rey's friends. Haha at first I really didn't want to go but after much persuasion by steph and the assurance its not the bowlers I decided to accompany her since I had nothing to do. Really glad I followed her man. It was really fun. The people were really nice. The big winner which was rey was even giving out cash for cab ride home. Talk about friendly gambling. Haha it was a huge change from the normal gambling session I used to go with the bowlers where everyone was out to win your cash. Haha oh well, thats the past.
It was great seeing steph too! And also got to know a few of my seniors even though they are from barker but they are really nice la! Hahaha. A qoute from a friend......Not say I want to say la, but really, Ac is too strong already. Haha
Been feeling really Emo the past few days but I have gotten over it. I mean its no point getting sad over little issues. Life too short to be worrying about such stuff.
Really there isn't much to blog about these few days. I mean my daily routine just wake up at 9, online go back to sleep till about 12, buy food eat, sleep till 5. Get ready for training come back, eat again online till 2 3. And then sleep! And its the same routine all over again! haha talk about being lazy la.
Ashley you have got to wake up!
You're Living In Yesterday's Channel
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
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| :: Ashley | | 3/07/2007 06:24:00 PM |
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=Stuck At That Moment=
I really do not know what to blog about. Recently been feeling all emo and shit. Never have I felt so down before in my entire life. Really.
I really do not know whta is coming over me. On monday even when I was training, fucking hell, I couldn't concentrate at all. I felt there was something constantly at the back of my mind.
Fucked up. Totally.
When is this going to end. Maybe later? Going back to hometown with Qingyao later. Finally a beer where it all began.
Sometimes what we thought was fun was actually a mistake to begin with.
Look at us now.
And so I ask you, where do we go from here?
I feel I'm still stuck at that moment.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
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| :: Ashley | | 3/04/2007 08:47:00 PM |
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=It Will All Be Alright=
Here I am again, typing on wordpad in my room before transferring it over to my sister's com to enter it into my blog. Haha Fucked up blogger. I do't understand why google has to make the big change. I mean it was perfectly fine in the past. Now I have to get a google account, and best I can't even blog on my com. Sigh. Fucked up.
Ah whatever la. I realised my life has becoming more and more fucked up. Everything I do is temporary; it will only heal the soul in the short run. However, I will feel the detrimental effect in the long run. And I know, its gona be fucking bad.
So they say a leopard will never change its spots? I'm seeing some if not much truth in that statement. I really give up already. Fucking kena lectured by someone today. Couldn't take it. Whatever la.
Nice guy my fucking ass la.
Sorry but you've got the wrong person.
My life is out of control.
It’s a continuous downward spiral.
Starting work at American Express tomorrow. Hope all goes well tomorrow man. Haha
I hope its slack. Suddenly don't know why had loads of job offer with high pay! Haha fucked up! Why can't they ask me earlier man! Haha
I need to be happy again. You are the only one that can make everything alright. Just like how you made me so happy today.
Then again, what has become of us? I'm still confused. I Miss you. I miss you. I don't show it but deep down you inside I care for you more than anything in this world. I just want my little fun. Thats all.
Maybe one day we will get married and have kids just like how we always dream of. Do the things we love. Going on Holidays with the kids. I want to be the best father in the world. I want to give my kids the best. Most importantly I want my wife to feel loved.
Just for you baby.
Damien Rice - 9 Crimes
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I'd do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright with you?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright with you?
With you
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I'd do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It's the wrong time
but she's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright with you?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright with you?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright Is that alright with you?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?
No...
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