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= I'm Gonna Make You Tap Bitch =
Thursday, January 31, 2008
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| :: Ashley | | 1/31/2008 11:37:00 PM |
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=Time To Say GoodBye=
I really don't need you anymore.
Have fun with whatever you're doing.
It was great while it lasted.
Didn't regret it, never will.
However I sure you can't say the same.
Thanks anyway.
Monday, January 28, 2008
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| :: Ashley | | 1/28/2008 11:10:00 PM |
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=My Day Isn't Complete=
I hate to not being able to talk to you.
It makes me feel so uneasy.
Its as though my day hasn't been completed.
I miss hearing your voice.
Everytime I call you I'm just scared you don't pick up my call.
Sigh
Then again, as I ponder why
I began to feel maybe its for the better.
I miss you like fuck ok.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
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| :: Ashley | | 1/26/2008 04:31:00 PM |
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=Intimacy=
She has been dead 2 years now
And thats the shit I remember
Wonderful stuff
Little simple things like that
Those are the things I miss the most
The little idiosyncrasy that only I know about
Thats what made you my wife
She has the goods on me
She knew all my litle secret
People call these things imperfection
But they are not
Oh thats the good stuff
Then we got to choose who we let into our weird little world
You're not perfect
The girl you met isn't perfect either
But the question is whether you guys are perfect for each other
Thats the whole deal thats what intimacy is all about
The only way you can find out is if you give it a shot.
At the end of the day, the simple little things that the both of you do will never be forgotten. Its always the simple things that count. I will never forget the times I sat with you on the curb just outside your house at Lor Chuan. The piggyback rides I gave you and running to your house while you kept on screaming to let you down.
I miss you still.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
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| :: Ashley | | 1/20/2008 01:08:00 PM |
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=Rehan, I Miss You=
Where has my Rehan gone to?
I really miss him so fucking much.
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| :: Ashley | | 1/20/2008 01:01:00 PM |
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=Guardian Angel=
I want to be your guardian angel.
Yes, you got it right. I'm referring to you.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
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| :: Ashley | | 1/19/2008 09:03:00 PM |
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=Dead=
I had enough of your nonsense.
I can't believe it.
You're always trying so hard
just to get everyone's attention.
Disgusting.
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| :: Ashley | | 1/19/2008 03:11:00 AM |
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=Good Morning World=
Good morning world
Suddenly I can't sleep. Wtf
Just a few hours ago I was slipping in and out of dreamland.
It really feels good to be in dreamland.
Away from reality.
They lost.
I know you're going to be hard on yourself.
All I can say is don't be. Losing is part of the game.
You learn from your mistakes.
In this case the team has got to learn from their mistakes.
Its a team game so you can't shoulder the entire burden on yourself.
Its not fair to you.
Well, think of all the great victories you have won with the team
Especially Mon and you won't feel so bad afterall.
I felt you played well.
It was a good season for you right? Haha
Monday, January 14, 2008
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| :: Ashley | | 1/14/2008 08:32:00 PM |
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=A Walk Down Memory Lane=
I forgot how it is like to compete.
For so long, I didn't participate in any competition.
Its not like before, where every month or 2 there would be at least 1 tournament and the mental stress I go through is crazy.
Everytime I want to out perform everyone else in the field and everytime I fail to do it.
Not to brag but I was good, but just not good enough when it comes to making the perfect shot under pressure or tournament condition.
This time it would be different. I will finish what I started.
Anyway squid won her floorball match against NYP the defending champion. On friday they drew with Tp. That means NUS will face NYP. She was so scared that they will lose. Now looking back, it was probably a good thing. They got rid of their main opposition and will have an easier time in the finals.
Squid scored an awesome fucking fucking nice shot. It was like a free kick in soccer just that in floorball its probably called a free hit. Anyway she struck it with such tremendous power, the impulse was probably off the chart and the ball was flying with such high velocity that it just flew straight to the back of the net leaving the goal keeper and everyone stunned. It was a beautiful goal, well done squid.
We will always understand our fellow sportmen or women. Everyone hate losing, but yet losing is part and parcel of the game. Sometimes we need to lose to realise our mistakes. I'm fighting in February. Well I'm not scared at all, I'm just FUCKING FUCKING SCARED OK. I really don't want to lose. I just can't lose. If I lose at IVP how am I going to fight a MMA fight where the competitors are much fitter and better prepared for the fight?
Well thats a long way more, I'm just gona concentrate on this MuayThai IVP first. I can't wait but yet I'm scared, I want to win so badly.
Watching the floorball match brought back memories. Memories when we were in JC and I would go down to delta to support all your hockey matches. Weekdays and weekends were spent there, but I'm not complaining. I love to watch you play. I love to see you run around with that stick, being there for you when you lose, laugh and be happy with you when you win. Carry your hockey bag around, waiting alone at the stand for you to finish bathing. Haha
During interschool, friends will be asking are you supporting VJ or AC? Hahaha there you were in your Vj uniform and me in my AC uniform.
Sometimes I wish we were back in Jc so I can treat you better, spend more time with you. Given a chance to go back, I will not make the same mistakes again. However, memories will always be memories. Its good to look back at times but we must always look towards the future and make sure the mistakes you made in the past will not happen again.
This is called learning. Learning is a constant process that never stops even after graduation.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
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| :: Ashley | | 1/09/2008 02:41:00 AM |
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=Never=
Your forever meant never.
Your words were nothing but empty promises.
I will never fall for it again.
Never again.
I promise you.
I don't want to be that nice guy ever again.
Because you took me for GRANTED.....once again.
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
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| :: Ashley | | 1/02/2008 12:06:00 PM |
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=New Year=
Another year went pass just like that.
To me its just another year, another bad year.
As I grow up, my year seems to get more and more fucked up.
Mine had to end badly but seriously I can't be bothered.
Or at least I try not to be.
Another sem of school is starting, I have to do well this sem.
I need to work harder but haven't I worked hard enough last sem?
Why were my grades so bad? I was so happy when I saw my grades till I realised everyone did well too. Ahh whatever la.
DL, I'm sorry I lost my cool. I'm never like this at all. I don't even know why either. I should be the one making you feel better when you're down or feeling lonely but yet I failed to do so. I just need time. Even then its just going to cover it up but not erase it.
On a brighter side of things, your entry was really sweet. Thank you for enduring all my nonsense. All my pettiness. I didn't mean it but you have been the most patient when it comes to dealing with me. Anyone else wouldn't even bother. I don't say it at all but I really really appreciate it alot. Thank you.
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