I Leave The World Today // Somewhere In My Heart I'm Always... Dancing With You In The Summer Rain.
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What I Know About Myself Ashley Tan . Better Known As Pigo . The Great 3.3 and 4.3 . ACS(I) . ACJC . Ex-1SG4 & Ex-2SG4 . Slacker . Ex-Bowler . Can't Live Without Mix Martial Art . Watching Pride FC Is A Must . Addicted To English Drama Serials . Enjoys Having A Quiet Beer With Close Friends . Trance . Hardstyle . Rock . Indie . Emo Songs . Food Is My Life
I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I need to focus on this pain because its the only thing that is real. Nothing else really is. Everything is just an illusion. you can have on all the make up in thw world, but it will hide it temporarily.
Now I dont even know the person that I have become. At the end of the day, everyone goes away. Whatever it is, you can have it all. my entire empire of dirt. At the end of time, everything just disappear.
No matter what happens to you, no matter what a person you become, I'm still here for you.
It has to wait. I decided to divert my funds to places where it will be most beneficial to me. Took the whole day to think about it.
Life couldn't be better. Great colleagues. Slack job. Good bosses. Generous pay! Looks like things are turning around for me.
I wasn't like this say about 2 months back. Everything was going downhill. Was smoking too much and drinking too much. Spending time doing useless stuff, kept telling myself I couldn't do chemistry and computing. I feel we always spend a great amount of time doing useless stuff. Doing things that will put you down. From next sem onwards it will never be " How am I going to pass this subject" but rather "how am I going to get that A/A+". When school reopens, there are tonnes of things I need to get done, and this time it wil be done. I decided that keeping myself occupied is the best way to be focus throughout the sem.
Suddenly things that once intrigued me no longer grab my attention. I craved for that attention no more. I can't believe that I could even feel that way.
My bed is calling out to my body, so it will.
You're absolutely lovely but you just don't know :) 2 more and we shall be seen together again....I hope.
A child's smile is pure. It's innocent. A child does not have motive. You look at a child smiling and you know every part of it is real.
As you begin to ponder on life, you wonder where has that innocence that was once in you disappeared to. What has sucked it out of you?
We have all become, whether we like it or not, sinister in our own way. We have used people (and being used by others too) at different points of our lives.
Whenever I look at these pictures, I can't help but wonder, could this really be me last time? My present self is so overwelming that it has totally masked every bit of memory I have of my little self.
I can't even see it. I really can't even see it. Help me please, I don't want it to be this way.
I started work at Kelly Services for quite so time already and I must say I am really enjoying my self over there. People there are awesome even though I've just found out certain office politics which I didn't quite like. Oh well I mean these things are inevitable.
Just when I was getting to know some of them better, they had to leave. First it was Ruihan and Faith, then just on Friday it was Julin, they are really great people.
Anyway people come and people go. You just never know how long they will be with you. At least at one point they were special to you. They were special in your heart.
And yes; You're special.
I did relatively well for my exams even though I knew I could have done better. Some subjects I was so confident of an A and above became an A-. I thought for Chemistry I've done enough for at least a B- but I guess not. In the past, B seems to be a good grade but now, its just mediocre. I have to do better. Its going to be even better from next sem onwards.
I'm glad my GPA is now 3. Much better as compared to my previously 2.41. I will slowly pull my GPA up to a 4.0. I must graduate with a 2nd upper.
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