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= I'm Gonna Make You Tap Bitch =
Saturday, November 26, 2005
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| :: Ashley | | 11/26/2005 02:18:00 PM |
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=Hibernation=
I don't know why I did it yet again and again. I can't face it.
I'm going into hibernation. I'm too ashame to face you. Take care.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
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| :: Ashley | | 11/20/2005 05:17:00 PM |
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=I Failed..........again=
I can't take it, I can't accept the lost.
Why, why....why couldn't I do my best. I was so confident this year it would be me. I guess I was over confident.
This contest is so important to me. Its the only thing I'm good at. Yet the same thing cause me to fail over and over again.
Pressure. I can't handle pressure well, I get super nervous, my hand fumble, I can't type properly. Sigh.
So I failed....again.
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| :: Ashley | | 11/20/2005 10:50:00 AM |
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=Boring....=
I really don't know what to blog about these days. Sigh.
Dota anyone? Haha
T.A.T.U - Loves Me Not
I complicated our lives
By falling in love with him
I complicated our lives
Now I'm losing my only friend
I don't know why, I had to try
Living my life on the other side
Now I'm so confused
I don't know what to do
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, She loves me not
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me...
I started blurring the lines
Because I didn't care
I started crossing the line
Cause you were never there
No where to turn,
No one to help,
It's almost like I don't even know myself
Now I have to choose
I don't know what to do
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, She loves me not
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, she loves me
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, She loves me not
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me...
No where to turn,
No one to help,
It's almost like I don't even know myself
Now I have to choose
I don't know what to do
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, She loves me not
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, She loves me not
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, She loves me not
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, She loves me not
Loves me not...
Sunday, November 13, 2005
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| :: Ashley | | 11/13/2005 08:34:00 PM |
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=Wo Men De Ai=
wo men de ai...
guo le jiu bu zai hui la
zhi tao xian zai wo hai zai mo mo de deng dai
wo men de ai wo ming pai
Did you see the mtv for this song..sigh..everytime I watch the mtv I can't help but smile and wonder why can't I be like them and be able to treasure the one they love. I tend to take people who treat me nicely for granted.
Sigh.
Songs by T.A.T.U are almost the same. They remind me of the past. Don't ask me why, but they do. Sigh.
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| :: Ashley | | 11/13/2005 08:25:00 PM |
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=My Fucking Ass=
3Sg big fuck? My fucking ass.
1st day in 42, a 2Lt by the name of Jordan knocked us down. Fuck you.
I love my Rnb. I want to treat you nice, I want us to be the best of friends but I can't see it happening now. I tried to be nice but u just push me away.
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| :: Ashley | | 11/13/2005 04:12:00 AM |
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=I'm Scared Of Being Alone.=
I can't be left alone. Today was one of the worse day of my life. I felt so lonely, I felt no one was there, I had no one to go to. I felt so left out, and I was being put in one corner with no one to turn to.
I was very very scared, I was terrified and no one saved me from it.
I was walking alone, walking home alone. I knew this was cause by me, I was the cause of all these fucking shit.
Words can not describe the feeling I felt today. It was so wierd. I don't want to go through it again. It wasn't lonliness that made me scared but rather being push away that made me cry.
It seems like dota is the only thing that will accompany me when I'm alone. Played dota today on battlenet. People there are nice though some can be a dick because they are losing, but generally they are nice people.
I'm a girl, and girls have feelings. I'm not a typical boy who doesn't give a damn about people or things around him. I tend to be very sensitive to things thats happening around me. I get hurt easily, even when you don't know or can't feel it. Yet I get really excited with the most simple act.
Met a cab driver who kept talking to me about love, sex gays and my dick. I feel the need to cherish you before you leave me just like the others. I don't want that to happen. I'm being selfish cause love is selfish.
You know who are your friends through tough times and those who sticks with you and support you all the way.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
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| :: Ashley | | 11/12/2005 10:46:00 AM |
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=Bored=
I'm getting bored. What's wrong with me?
Please send me to the university please?
No more outfield, no more men, no more sai kang, no more wayang.
No More extras....no more sol...no more getting charged for doing stupid things which you are forced to do.
I just want to study. I want to lead a peaceful life. Just leave me alone.
Monday, November 07, 2005
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| :: Ashley | | 11/07/2005 10:25:00 PM |
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=You are officially In 42.=
You have officially been posted to 42 therefore as of tomorrow..tuesday....081105 you will have to stay in 42.
Thanks 2LT for the 'lovely' piece of news.
Fucked up man. What happen to...this is a stay out course and you all have to stay out. There are no bunks for you.
Why the suddenly availibility of bunks in 42. I bet they just want us to do sai kang.
Sigh..the life of a spec.
Who can deny 2002 best ATEC company...Kafier company.........
Was at 42 today...laugh my hearts out when I saw Kafier company...Kinda like a BX joke.
Anyway I think I might be going over to Kafier. Woah great luck. Haha
Next entry will be on a fri instead of tomorrow. WIll be in 42. Sigh.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
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| :: Ashley | | 11/06/2005 09:30:00 PM |
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=I'm In Front Of A Cloud!=
While navigating 5000feets up, and asked where he was by his instructor. My good friend Qingyao decided to be funny and said I'm in front of the clouds. Haha, instructors replied by saying don't bull shit chan.
Since Ninja this buddy of mine been doing stupid things to make us laugh. Haha
Those were the times. Ninja company!
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| :: Ashley | | 11/06/2005 10:14:00 AM |
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=You did that?!=
YOU deleted my testimonial for you and your tesimonial for me.
I thought I could have some pieces thats left shattered around. I guess not.
Entries about us? Gone too......
Thanks.
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| :: Ashley | | 11/06/2005 09:49:00 AM |
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=Liquid Room!=
Saw her from a far.....I knew exactly it was her, I just knew it. The way she walk, the way she looked carrying that handbag, the things she does when shes walking is all too familiar.
She was talking to an old man selling tissue paper. It touched my heart. She changed, she seems to be more sensitive to other people feelings. Its great to see her so happy now and the new change in her.
He didn't want to see the entries she wrote about you. That was what I was told.
Anyway, enough about her before my little squid gets really jealous. Don't be jealous squid. Hehe.
Liquid was awesome. Met clifford there, it was almost like a mini .3 reunion. Tzehow was there too with his gf. Its been a while since we all met up and club. It was fun. It was havoc.
Koflow never seem to let us down.
Friday, November 04, 2005
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| :: Ashley | | 11/04/2005 12:48:00 AM |
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=Mambo Night.=
Mambo was awesome!
It was almost like the AC days when AC people gathered there. First when we reached there the Q was massive. I thought I did damn well as I cut the Queue to like quite in front. But Deva did the unbelieveable. That fucker just walked straight to the front as if he was a member. Haha. The next thing I knew Yuhao called me to come to the front. Oh well....AC people....what can I say.
Mambo was great. Music was just too good to be true. Phuture was happening too man. It was not as crowded as before cause they put a limit to it. Great move I must say. There was a balance of both guys and girls.
Its liquid this sat. Its seem mambo never fails me. Haha. 5months without mambo almost drove me crazy.
Yesterday was just.....................
Orgasmic
I miss those times mamboing with all the AC people.
Sigh, I 'm still sick. Got to call Darren soon to inform him I'm coming back to Mixed Martial Art. Hopefully now I can make it for the Vale Tudo classes. Haha, its been awhile since I spar of roll with people.
I love what I'm doing................and thats all it matters.
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
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| :: Ashley | | 11/02/2005 01:16:00 PM |
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=Singtel=
Singtel just sent me a letter.
Its coming.
I really want to win it this year. I do it not for the fame or glory but just for the money. Haha. But you can't blame me, Im just a poor NS boy.
Maybe I get to see the friends I made last year. Haha. Haven't seen kimberly since last year june. The last I heard she became the world champion.
Anyway its mambo tonight. I feel regenerated. Finally.....after 5months break...its time for mambo again! :)
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| :: Ashley | | 11/02/2005 10:43:00 AM |
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=Brotherhood=
Some people will never understand the meaning of brotherhood till they go through army.When they are made to go through tough times, then they realised the only people they have will be their friends who are going through the same shit with them.
I was watching we were soldiers and I began to think. The friends I'm closest to are the ones I went through the most shit with. People from Ninja, they understand the fucked up shit we went through. Sispec.... ahh can fuck that, hated that place, commanders with bad attitude. SOA, it was tough. Commanders were good, people were great. Times were not easy there, we had to go through a long 5months course. In the end we made it, I will never forget the crazy times we had in the bunk. How dirty my bunk was all the times until it was book out day where we had to do area cleaning. Even that it was only the last 15min then we would start cleaning it up. Haha
Thats my bunk for you. Platoon 2 section 1 and 3 of section 2 combine. Haha. Those were the times. I guess its true when they say the times when you were on course would be the best. I had always looked forward in a being a commander, but now I'm afraid. Afraid of ending up like the fucked up instructors in sispec.
My WHole Course In Taiwan! Notice Our Vehicles. Its Fucking MuddyAnd We Had To Clean It!
My Platoon. PLatoon 2!
Happy Hour!
My Bunk!
Start Of The Course. The Driving Phase.
Fooling Around In The Bunk
How Can I Forget My Buddies From NinJa!!! :)
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