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= I'm Gonna Make You Tap Bitch =
Sunday, November 26, 2006
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| :: Ashley | | 11/26/2006 10:41:00 PM |
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=Run=
My Body Is A Machine.
These words were painted on the walls in Arab St. A friend of mine took a picture of it and I love it.
Hehe
Run baby Run.......
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak
I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voic
eI'll be right beside you dear
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
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| :: Ashley | | 11/21/2006 11:47:00 PM |
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=Dreaming Of You=
I'm planning to dye my hair soon, but I don't know when. Hehe
MMA was great today. But sigh, why must we quarrel. I just hate it.
Exams can tear even the closest people apart.
But I still love you dear :)
I hate to feel hated. Sigh, I'm just stating the obvious. Who likes to feel hated right?
Haha.life still goes on though :)
Best part of last week, I have renewed my faith. It wasn't so scary after all :)
Squid, I'm gona be dreaming of you tonight.
Sunday, November 19, 2006
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| :: Ashley | | 11/19/2006 11:40:00 PM |
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=Prison Break=
And so season 2 Episode 11 ended. Fuck I can't stand it, I need to know whats going to happen to sara. I hope she doesn't die. Argh its killing me inside.
Anyway yesterday was a great day spent with squid. Haha, it was like a family gathering with her side of the family. We both seem to be caught in the same situation. Well almost, had dinner with her sis and mum. Haha, when she have dinner with my sid eof the family, its the same, the sister, and the mum. :)
I like it small.
I miss you...I really do and I can't wait to see you again :)
Its work tomorrow!
Sunday, November 12, 2006
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| :: Ashley | | 11/12/2006 09:51:00 PM |
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=The Bamboo Plant=
I'm Never able to put the finishing touches to it.
It always end in the middle for me.
I don't understand it. Its like I will never be able to reap my reward even if I do everything right.
I just can't win. Its always 2nd. Or even worse unplaced. I do not know what to so.
I'm so tired, my head is spinning. I'm starting work tomorrow.
I don't want to give up.
I read something at the gym and the story goes as such.....
The chinese bamboo is a mystical plant.
You take the seed and plant it.
For the 1st year you water and fertilise it diligiently.
You do this without fail for 1 year but yet nothing happen.
2nd year, you water and fertilise it again without fail.
You take really good care of it, doing everything right that is needed of you to make your plant grow.
But yet nothing happen.
3rd year,
Again you do everything right watering it and fertilising it with the right amount of fertiliser everyday
but somehow it doesn't grow again. Not even a single inch!
4th year,
you water it and fertilise it everyday without fail. You never ever neglect your bamboo plant.
But again....it doesnt grow an inch!
And so the 5th year come.
You water and fertilise it everyday just like how you did it everyday for the past 4years
Then suddenly somewhere in the middle of the 5th year, the bamboo plant starts to grow.
And within 6 weeks, it grows to 60FEET high.
Now you have gain your reward and I guess that I should learn from this story. I may be doing everything right but I just never gotten my reward, but if I never give up and press on, I'm sure one day it will pay off.
A story which I guess will change my life forever and this time its for the better.
I want to turn my life around, it has been going downhill and I will not let it happen.
Came in 6th for the SMS contest today. I hate it. I can't stand it. Why do I keep failing? I keep cracking under pressure. Sigh.
I guess its better not to talk about it.
Gd night. I'm starting work at citibank tomorrow.
Friday, November 10, 2006
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| :: Ashley | | 11/10/2006 01:09:00 AM |
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=ORD=
My Head still spinning from yesterday. The after effects of getting intoxicated sucks.
You start to feel depress and worried that while you were drunk, you did or said something to offend others. The best part is, you have no recollection of whatever has happened. While intoxicated, you have no control of you body and its scary.
People will judge you, but really that isn't the real you. You are saying and doing things without much thought.
With that being said, I drove the whole day today! Haha, actually wanted to get a manual car but my mum seems so worried thus I decided to just get the auto to put her at ease.
So yesterday was the ORD mambo, didn't really go how I had expected it to be. There were minor screw ups and someone just left us alone outside. I wonder who haha.
Nonetheless, it was great. Drinking with qingyao tim and gang. Meeting nigel there, wah it seems so surreal that it has been 2 years already! It has been fast really fast.
The times in ninja will never be forgotten, the shit we went through, its no easy feat but we survived. I know I will definately have ooc without the friends I have in there especially qingyao tim and nigel. Awesome time man, awesome time.
So I'm done with the army phase with a whole lot more experience. It seems I'm been going through loads of shit now. Please don't add to the burden please.
Its now time for me to enjoy! Haha
Thanks to those who have helped me through army, those who saw me through the difficult times. My ninja company buddies! Duty Honour Country Ninja Company! I say again, Qingyao Tim Nigel! Haha
Tim Me Qingyao! Havoc!
We Survived Together!
Sispec, which was a let down from the beginning. I don't wish to remember any part of it. AISL Armour! Great time spent there. ROC rocks! haha
Kaffir, met some really great people. Life great being a commander. Unfortunately not at 42. haha So we clubbed alot. Started drinking for the first time for some. Haha. Friendship being bonded over a couple of martels and chivas and loads of beer. Haha
All I want to say is thanks for those who been through the tough times with me and that I will never forget each and everyone of you. Take care and I believe as we all take our separate path way to success, we will one day meet :)
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
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| :: Ashley | | 11/07/2006 10:38:00 PM |
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=That's The One=
And so the in thing for me now is Prison Break.
Haha. I'm amaze at myself at times.
Monday, November 06, 2006
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| :: Ashley | | 11/06/2006 07:27:00 PM |
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=The Weekend=
So the week's going quite well for me. Its Ord time!!! Haha been going back to camp rather frequently to get signatures of certain individuals. Its rather tiring. Sigh.
Can't believe it,9th Nov is drawing nearer. I can't wait! I can't wait to ORD. I have suffered the most in the army and I'm so glad I came out of it alive. There were many instances where I could have died or gotten my future ruined! Thank God its all over :)
Oh Happy Birthday Jolin Jiemei! Haha It was her birthday last week. Held at KM8 and it was weird...for me la cause I didn't really know anyone. But I mean its jolin's birthday so I had to go. Haha
Us At Kushin Bo
My Men! :)
Our Bunk Filled With Memories 
Jiemeis!
Last words.......................
ORD LO! =)
Saturday, November 04, 2006
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| :: Ashley | | 11/04/2006 01:09:00 AM |
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=Silence Is Lost=
I have always been very interested in photography. Seeing some of photographer nice pictures seem to bring out the happiness in me. Though I don't know much about photography, I'm still rather interested in it. Well I'm saying this is because I just visited one of my relatively old friend blog and she has really really cool pics of places.
Met her on the train just after training, Its been like what 6-7 years since I last met her. I didn't say hi though, it was weird, I doubt she would recognise me though but we were sort of stealing glances at each other cause I guess we both knew we knew each other but I do not feel like I'm comfortable talking to her now.
Oh well. I can be really shy at times. Ripped this off from her blog which I felt was so true. I love reading her blog and I don't know why. I just get the lovely feeling. Like somehow the stuff she writes relates very well to me.
"We sit silently and watch the world around us. This has taken us a lifetime to learn. It seems only the old are able to sit next to one another and not say anything and still feel content. The young, brash and impatient, must always break the silence. It is a waste, for silence is pure. Silence is holy. It draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. This is the great paradox."
- The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks
Sigh, I guess sometimes its best we get some alone time. Then we are able to focus on things that we missed out and are important.
The one person most important in my life now is not talking to me because I flare up. I couldn't take it anymore.
I hate it when people tease or mock me about the fire but I can accept it, but when squid told me I was crazy cause thats why I set the fire, I just exploded. i wasn't able to take it.
Sigh. I hate this feeling now when she doesn't pick up the phone.
A big project is under way but it seems to hit some rough patches. Now the idea might be scrap because it doesn't seem that it will be successful.
Met shirley and yixuan at HV busstop today. been awhile since I last saw the 2 girls. Shirley was damn nice to take the same bus as me even though she had to walk longer and her bus was just right infront of my bus. But then again, the timing was wrong. Squid called to scold me about rushing off and still had the time to meet rehan.
Had a hard time explaining myself, and I was really exhuasted already.
Managed to talk to shirley for awhile though, seems like school is really damn stressful and SMU isn't as fun as what many people perceive the uni to be. It seems all so AC like but I guess theres on 1 ACJC.
I'm dead beat. Full Stop.
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