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= I'm Gonna Make You Tap Bitch =
Sunday, May 30, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/30/2004 01:06:00 AM |
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=Today Is The First Day=
Sigh I miss you so much.............
Yay you just msged me! =)
Thought what have you been doing the whole day... hope you are having fun in KL
Today mixed was hell man. Got punched in the face by darren countless time, it was damn bloody hard. Got a headache after that. Then we did conditioning which was worse than mass pe! haha Oh well, but it was fun as usual =)
Saturday, May 29, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/29/2004 03:51:00 AM |
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=Rouge=
I must say, rouge is disappointing. Compared to the first party i went when it was milieu, it was miles behind. The dj suxks, they play funny songs. Songs that you will never know it existed. It was not rnb nor was it hip hop nor techno nor trance nor rock. Though there were some rnb here and there. But still it was quite fun hanging out with the soccer people. They are a real havoc bunch.
Just read a rjc and acjc student blog about the rugby. I'm really damn sad for the ruggers, damn raffles. Obviously both differ in views, but i would like to say ac rocks. Well maybe not acjc but then again acjc or not we still belong to the ac family. Anyway today at rouge You could tell at the faces of the ruggers that they are still affected by it.
Just got home and bathed, decided to wait till 5am for her to wake up so i can talk to her. Dun worry babe, today in the club i was hardly dancing. Was talking to enoch more than anything hahaha. Its great fun to be in the company of friends, but it would be even the best if you were there too.
Tomorrow you're going to Kl please take care of yourself k.You're having sorethroat, bring some strepsils or something ya just in case it gets really bad. Thanks for everything you done today, i really aprreciate it! Can't wait for you to get back then we go to chinablack together ya. Have fun during your stay in Kl k, but most importantly take care! i will miss you. =) *hugz*
Friday, May 28, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/28/2004 11:29:00 AM |
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=VJ WON RJ 1-0!!! =
Yesterday was the A div hockey finals and I'm happy to say that vjc won rjc 1-0. Yeah! Haha I'M SO PROUD OF YOU BABE!! She played really well. And her friend too florence i think scored the deciding goal. I must say the hockey girls really can hit the hockey ball really hard. Haha
However, sadly, ac guys lost to rj. Sigh we lost tennis girls rugby and hockey to rj already. 3 titles! sian half man.Oh well...
Decided not to go to school today, felt tired so ponned. Why am i so slack now, i should be more hardworking, sigh nvm after the chinablack party I'm going to study really hard. Oh btw...
Party@Chinablack
31st may, monday
Guys $16
Girls $14. Both inclusive of 1 free drink
Rnb hip hop top40s all night
House shots at $2
Teq shots at $5
Get your tickets from me, ashley 97490561
Yup guess its the last party I'm going to. And oh yah! theres a rouge party today. Its kaiting party,
everyone go to rouge too k and support kaiting. yup tickets for rouge is at $15 i think and theres a new drink called redbabe going at $5. All night long 1 for 1.......
I'm going to rouge today. Definately will not be staying long cause she doesn't want to go so i'm just going there to support kaiting.
Shes leaving for Kl tomorrow already. Sigh i will miss you... =(
Take care when you are there ok....I'm going to be so lonely here in Singapore...
Thursday, May 27, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/27/2004 12:53:00 PM |
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=Lets Continue Our Journey To Never Never Land=
The things i say is from my heart. I used to say things for the sake of saying, but from you i learn to think before i say anything If i did say it, i have to mean it. Its no point saying things that are going to be empty promises. You taught me how to be honest with each other, how to be trust and how to love.
I will not make the same mistake as i did. You;re scare history repeat itself? I can't say anything to make you less afraid, i can only do things to proof to you. Action speaks louder than words. All i hope for is you to open up...
Lets continue our journey to never never land...
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/26/2004 10:52:00 PM |
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=i'M tEcHnO cRaZy=
Sigh can't seem to find anymore new techno or euro. I'm hopelessly addicted to it man...and trance of course! I realise i listen to techno everyday, it seems to have become a drug to me haha... ohh well....
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| :: Ashley | | 5/26/2004 10:03:00 PM |
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=Slack.........=
Tm will be the hockey finals, ac guys vs rj guys...vj girls vs rj girls. Will be going down to support vj and ac. Yup Yup best is playing hope she plays her best tomorrow ya! I be cheering for u babe. =)
Did not go to school today, decided to slack at home, woke up late too. Well its great being able to sleep till late. Hate waking up so early. Sigh have nothing much to write about.
Today's has been a great day........lets keep our promise to each other...
Put your best in everything you do and leave the result to god.
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/25/2004 05:02:00 PM |
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=Trust=
Trust is the most important thing in relationships, whether it is relationship with a lover, friends, parents, cousins, sisters everything. Its something to be built over time not something you can gain instantly. The person have to prove to you slowly to gain your trust. Being able to trust the person with no fears, no worries is something which i really hope to achieve.
Sometimes when I read what you write it makes me worry i do not know why. I do not know whether you are talking about me or someone else. Maybe your english too good for me? *weak smile* I don't know. I have become very affected by the way you feel each day. Everytime when someone msg how i wished it was you, when i receive your msg u never know how happy I am. Your phone calls makes me smile, how you make me feel awake whenever i talked to you in the morning. Your voice so sweet, and it never fail to cheer me up even though i know I have a long day ahead.
I try my best to trust in you but it takes time, i hope you help me gain my trust in you.....
right now I'm just very very scare............
Help me overcome the fear in me
I know we can do it
Ignore the gossips
Ignore the criticism
I don't care what they say
They are not the one living our life
We make the decision, not them.
Stand by each other
And I know we can go through this rough patch
Believe in me
Believe in yourself
Most importantly Belive in Us!
Monday, May 24, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/24/2004 10:10:00 PM |
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=SeNtOsA!=
Today the bowlers had the day off. In the morning we all came to school knowing that we were going to have the day off, so we brought our clothes and stuff and get ready to head down to the beach. We thought prize presentation was going to be today too. So we all gathered at the front of the hall, only to receive gary phone call saying we are not having prize presentation today. He screwed us again. And the worst part is we might not have the day off! We were shocked, most of us did not bring work to school, so you can imagine the shock we got when we heard the news. Luckily gary manage to get the day off for us so the whole bowling team head down to the beach, well almost all.
It was great, been quite a while since i took a cable car to sentosa, you should have seen joshua expression while on the cable car. Actually i got it on my cam, uploading it now haha. He is scare of heights so when eugene kept jumping up and down the cable car he was so scare. Actually i was scare too. The cable car so high up in the sky and is very shakey. haha took loads of pictures today man. Its the last outing with the juniors so decided to take lots of pictures.
After sentosa we went to the food court at habour front to eat, it sux man, the food not good and its so expensive oh well...
Decided to play lan after that, woah! nv had so much fun playing lan before, and the crazy jokes along the way made the day damn fun. ahaha its crazy man!
Anyway a certain someone calls me a himbo, and another say I'm damn gay! =p haha i wonder who man.........
Sunday, May 23, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/23/2004 09:57:00 AM |
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=Confidence Almost Killed Us=
Have so much to say, this week have taught me lots of lessons. Firstly nothing is comfirm no matter how sure are you. I thought i would qualify for masters easily, i mean i just needed a 170 ave for the last day and i would be in. Who would have known i crashed out in the last day. I bowled a 585 for 4games on the last day. Obviously i did not qualify. We lost the quartet gold which we were so confident we would win.
Then came the shocking truth that we might lose the title to sajc. I could not believe it, we bowled well for 2 days, and on the last day sajc came and take the title away from us? Thats not possible right? Well thank god that did no happen, we manage to hold them back and win the title in the end. That was a close shave. I do not want to end my last year of national schools losing the title. I wanted to quit bowling for good, but now Im thinking twice. I can't believe i bowled so badly on the last day. If i quit now, i feel i'm a loser. But then again, i really have no interest in bowling anymore. I do not want to carry my bowling balls around.
This week have its up and downs. Many valuable lessons to learn. I guess the most important lesson that i learn is do not be so proud or be over confident.
Nothing will definately happen until it happens....
Anyway after the prize presentation and all, went to eat with kaiting at the marina south where i lost my ring. Argh! I'm sorry...
Went to delta with him to watch the semi final hockey match where vjc was playing acjc. I kept quiet throughout the game. Did not know who to support. haha. Anyway vj won 2-1 and ya. Kenji at night msg me saying best scored the goal and how did i feel about that. She did not score the goal! haha i think she played very well. The finals will be vjc against rjc. Guess i be going down with jason to watch. hahah
Anyway now its
back to school and serious studying.......................
Oh ya i realise i learnt 1 more lessons from the tournment. that is we should put the team before oneself. We must not always think about our own personal glory and gain. Instead of I I I, it should be We We We. It more glorious capturing the school title then to win 1st in the individual event. Who remembers if we won the singles or quartets gold, the school only remembers the bowling team won the national title.
Think of the team not yourself. I guess i was fighting for my own gain than for the school. I wanted to win badly, to qualify for the masters. Eugene said something today, we neglected god because we wanted to bowl well and win for ourselves. I was thinking about it the whole day and yes i agree. Its true.
Its better to be happy together with others than to be happy alone.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/18/2004 08:45:00 PM |
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=National School=
Today was the 1st day of national school. Bowled 185 ave and got 4th. Missed 3rd place by 9pins! sian 1/2 ohh well anyway i was not expecting a medal after the first game. Bowled a 146 and a 177. Thought it was impossible to win anything with 2games left. So i just aimed to push my average higher. Surprisingly i was fighting for 3rd place, and sadly i lost. Nevermind tomorrow shall be a great day! Must think of the big picture..........the overall school title
Tomorrow going to be the doubles, hope that i can bowl well. I want to, its my last year. This thought just came to me, I can't put down alot of things on this blog cause there are somethings that i really don't want a certain few to read. As in it is limiting the things i can write on the blog.Ah damn it, Sometimes i just want to put my feelings down but i can't. Its my life now, i can do whatever i want.
Stop it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, May 17, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/17/2004 10:53:00 PM |
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=HaPpIeSt DaY!!!!!!!!!=
Today is the happiest day of my life...............
Thanks for everything........
Tomorrow the start of the national schools........
We Can Do It.............................
Believe In Yourself..................
Sunday, May 16, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/16/2004 03:38:00 PM |
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=National Schools=
2 Days to my last time bowling for my school
2 Days to my last time bowling a tournment
Going to stop bowling
it does not interest me anymore
So...............
I just hope i can bowl well and win.
Do I Have the desire to win? You're damn right I have.
Mixed was great yesterday,realised my punches sucks, i cant throw a quality punch, keep leaning forward and could not turn properly. Weight kept going forward. Sigh nvm going to work hard on it.
Focus On Your Aims........................
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/12/2004 08:51:00 PM |
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=Training And More Training=
Trained 2 days in a row, my thumb is gettin swollen sigh. Anyway I'm goin to take a break, not going to train on friday. Found my timing back during training, heng man, thought i lost it and was damn worried cause competition just around the corner. Went to eat steam boat after training, xiangwei, ian and yuepeng never eaten bbq steamboat b4, haha wonder where have they been for the past 17 18years haha. Shared a cab back with Eugene and lawrence, talked to eugene the entire journey, about how in acjc people are sobo=ing one another. A small issue just to tease the person, whether is fake anot can turn into a rumour that spreads like wild fire. Haha, its funny if your standing by the side, watching people getting saboed. But it will not be funny if it happens to you.
Oh before steamboat, we went to checked out the spa near the alley, cause before national we wanted to go for a spa and massage to relax. They asked for our age, me and eugene thinking its all so powerful to be 18, shouted with confidence, "we're 18" then the woman told us we were under age. hahaha needed to be 21 to enter the spa man. I wonder what are they doing inside. And oh ya, we got chased out of the video arcade cause we were wearing our school bowling t-shirt by this bastard. He was so fierce, i mean he could ask us nicely right.
I'm not going school tm, too tired. Anyway i need a break, i'm exhausted. Today suppose to go mambo night with the sg3 guys, but was too tired and had no cash man, sorry guys hope you all have fun. =)
Really tired now, gona rest furst while waiting for my wrestling to start, take care people................
Sunday, May 09, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/09/2004 10:02:00 AM |
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=Alone=
Was alone at ps, so decided to play video games at the arcade upstairs, for a whole 3hr man. haha After which went to chomp chomp to buy food my mum and sis then took a cab home. No money again, so mum had to save me by waiting for me downstairs and giving me cash. haha
Mixed martial was cancelled cause i was the only one. Sigh been looking forward to it all week, rehan its your fault! haha. Was talking to Darren as to why he didn't join fight in ufc. He was saying they are much stronger than him, much taller. these guys are min 90kg during competition, and are damn bloody tall. Some 2m tall, how are you going kick them he said. And furthermore their skills are the same so it will be close to impossible to win them....haha oh well....
Sigh Why am i born so short.................... 1.8m, 1.9m would be fine,but sigh......if only.........
Anyway everyone go download Groove Coverage - Moonlight Shadow (piano mix)
Woah really good! It brings back memories. Everytime when i listen to techno, especially those with meanful lyrics and with a love songs tune, memories of the past just keep coming back. Oh well, everyone has their memories and past, we will just have to move on from here....
Friday, May 07, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/07/2004 10:52:00 PM |
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=Party!=
Been awhile since i blogged, today is going to be a short entry. National schools coming, my timing and release are all off. My fear is coming to me. I used to be so calm so confident, but now it seems that the possibility of us losing is becoming bigger. Sigh, hope i can get back my timing just national and peak then. Its my last tournment and i really want to bowl well.
4/5 was not as bad as i thought. Went home feeling happy, a warm feeling in my heart. Smiling and kept thinking of things on the bus home. Loads of things on my mind, one obvious thing that i think about always is obviously you, another part of me keep thinking of my exams this year, on the moves that i learned from mixed martial art, then theres my bowling.
Anyway guys, What if GOD IS A GIRL.................................
The world will not be so sexist........................
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/04/2004 01:51:00 PM |
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=Sigh=
I'm stress, i hope everything goes well today. I realise i left $14 in my wallet for the rest of the month, do not know how i am goin to survive. Sigh it seems my preparation has all gone to waste. I really hope to make today a special day for you but sigh, I'm sorry if i can't ya. ANyway hope you at least appreciate my effort. Hehe
Period over. I'm using the com lab for the first time. People are playing games everywhere man. Got to run. God please help me.
Sunday, May 02, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 5/02/2004 08:34:00 PM |
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=Marathon=
Went to church at about 1.30. It seems that everyweek the speaker says something which is really how i feel or how I am. Today, i woke up very tired, legs aching and loads of work to do, did not want to go to church. But in the end manage to pull myself out of bed and went to church. During the service, one guy said something like, " if you want to follow god just raise your hand and pray. Sometimes we just don't want to follow him cause we are too tired, so we just to keep coming back till we actually want to follow him."
wow! I mean thats exactly how i was like before going to church today, i will keep coming back till i truly follow god.
Anyway felt like i ran a marathon, went to orchard to do some shopping, walked alot and at a really fast pace! Bought a few things for myself, but it cost a bomb man. But it has been a long time since i really spend money to buy things for myself. Feeling satisfied. However, Now my bank account is empty, have to get money somehow. Wonder how am I goin to survive on $30 for the rest of the month.
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