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= I'm Gonna Make You Tap Bitch =
Saturday, July 31, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/31/2004 12:21:00 AM |
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=I Did It=
I Finally pass my driving test. After 6long months, I can finally say good bye to bbdc. It has been very tough getting my lisense man, have to cherish it. Difficult to get, easy to lose.
I remember last year people telling me that my year driving was changed to 21. That the 1985 batch was the last batch. Was quite scared and I kept trying t go LTA website to see if it has changed. Haha Damn happy now I got it.
So many people that I have to thank. But most importantly I have to thank god. He is the one that gave me my lisense. Maybe he wanted me to fail the first time to let me know how tough it is to get it, so I will cherish it next time. =)
And ya I must thank Pris for encouraging me always, and lynnette, eugene, my brothers and my classmates and jiemeis too. Thanks people.
Today's Peggy 18th birthday. Sorry I can't make it, Anyway happy birthday Girl! 18 already, no need to use other people ic. haha =) take care, don't club too much.
Today is such a lovely day. In fact it is my best days ever! =)
Thank God.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/29/2004 10:39:00 PM |
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=Confidence!=
I need confidence, I really need time. I guess this would be the right time to build up my confidence. God, I really pray tomorrow will be a good day. I hope I will perform to my ability, and have confidence in everything I do. I just so scared, scared of this scared of that, it is only hindering my success.
I can do it, I just have to be more alert and focus.
Confidence.
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/28/2004 08:19:00 PM |
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=Number 1=
Ahhh. the song of techno, i just love it. Well I know most people don't so you all can just fuck off ya. This isn't one of the greatest euro, but it still good.
Low in confidence now, only euro can calm me down, and did it calm me down man. Listening to the beats and the lyrics, its heaven. Ya say you can say I'm a beng whatever, I listen to what I like, I live my life for myself. The only thing i lack of is the determination to strive for even greater heights.
I can do it, remain calm. Those testers are just like any normal human beings. Relax calm yourself down, and pray.
ALEXIA - NUMBER ONE
I wanna hold you baby
I wanna hold you
Never be lonely with me by your side
Say that you want me baby
I got the things you needed to get by
I wish you love me too
This time you promise and look into my eyes
I can give you loving baby
Show me the way to make you feel alright
Falling in love to you
I wanna be your number one
Nobody else tonight
You gonna be my crazy love
I'll never let you down
I don't wanna lose you
I know you'll never gonna break my heart
Say that you want me baby
I got the things you've needed to get by
Falling in love again
I wanna be your number
Nobody else tonight
You gonna be my crazy love
I'll never let you down
I wanna be your number one
Nobody else tonight
You gonna be my crazy love
I'll never let you down
I wanna be your number one
La la la la la la
I wanna be your number one
La la la la la
I wanna be your number one
Nobody else tonight
You gonna be my crazy love
I'll never let you down
I wanna be your number one
Nobody else tonight
You gonna be my crazy love
I'll never let you down
I wanna be your number one
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| :: Ashley | | 7/28/2004 02:30:00 PM |
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=Poetry =p=
I must thank Rachel, cause I found this website on her blog. They have nice poetry there. Yes yes, I'm not the art or the literature student, but sometimes I like reading them and trying to figure out what is it actually talking about. Thus I decided to post the poem. Enjoy.
In case you people want the links, its on the left under poetry.
She Saw the Fall.
mightyjoe
She walked lonely down a winter street, you know the one-
that changes with the seasons.
She pulled her coat in tight around the middle,
clasping her fortune in an icy fist.
She thought of him and kicked herself,
then thought of him again.
She smiled, thinking of the day,
as a sweet boy, he had brought to her his heart,
inscribed on it she read:
"True love is seeing oneself
as clearly in others as in oneself".
He said he stole it, from his horoscope.
To herself, she mocked him
but offered out her hand and let the crimson warm it,
her own heart, he took to place on ice
"So you can love me now, forever"
Oh, and how she loved him.
Just like he said, she loved him,
til it burned around the wrist.
For three good years now, she had screwed herself in tighter,
mouthing "i loathe you" into the sweaty hollow of his shoulder.
Now she raped herself atop him,
shut-eyed, impaled her hatred on a nail of blood and rust,
until her entire body shook with repulsion,
his cue to come and sicken her with his red-faced struggle.
She couldnt imagine life without him.
With bruised lips and a warm chin,
she thought about the day she caught him,
cross-legged on the floor, sifting through her squalor,
how he looked up at her, his eyes brimming with liquid hate and fear.
She had seen herself in those pitiful blobs,
"Hello, my love" She whispered.
That room was empty now, but for dust and curtains.
She walked lonely down a winter street, you know the one -
that changes with the seasons.
She sank her teeth into her bottom lip and smiled,
the stars had promised her today
that she would meet him in the fall.
She thought of him and kicked herself,
then thought of him again.
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/27/2004 10:10:00 PM |
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=The End..........................=
My Favourite Techno Artist! Groove Coverage!!!!
Groove Coverage - The End
My home is in motion, as darkness unfolds.
The air overloaded, the sky's dancing gold.
But you went away, you left me to stay
We'll see us in heaven, I'm counting the days
Chorus:
At the end of time, at the end of us,
At the end of everything we had,
Only faith helps you, only grace can do
Only you can take the pain
Cause the end of peace is the end of life
and the end of any happiness
Only love helps you, only trust can do
Only you can take the pain of me
When thunder is calling I feel so alive
The very first morning, can you see the light?
But you closed the door, to what I adored
We'll see us in heaven, I'm counting no more
Chorus
At the end of time, at the end of us,
At the end of everything we had,
Only faith helps you, only grace can do
Only you can take the pain
Cause the end of peace is the end of life
and the end of any happiness
Only love helps you, only trust can do
Only you can take the pain of me
Monday, July 26, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/26/2004 06:20:00 PM |
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=Dave Chapelle=
Dave Chapelle is one hell of a funny guy. His show just makes me laugh like hell man! It takes the stress and pressure away from me. The nervousness, the anxiety everything. Hes so fucking funny man! For Rehan," Darkness is spreading! " haha he comes out with the funniest jokes! I must thank Deva for introducing this good shit to me man.
Just as Yuhao would say,"You're a player pai !"
Just read wes blog and fucking hell yeah, SG combi rocks man.It just dawned on me that we are the last batch of SG! =~(
Its sad, but then again, i feel more motivated to do well. We should end it with great result, since us SG people haven't been the brightest in terms of studies. Even the school teachers are talking about us, using our marks as examples to the different types of failing. I say " WHAT THE FUCK MAN!" I guess thats why some of us have so low self esteem, I mean even the teachers are condemning us as failures.
We will have to prove them wrong........PLAYERS.
Sunday, July 25, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/25/2004 07:48:00 PM |
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=It Is Drawing Nearer....=
Its coming soon.....
I'm trying to be calm, but somewhere deep down I know I am not.
Eugene said, "god decide your result."
I guess I just have to do my best, if god thinks its still not the right time, then I shall listen to him.
But god, I really hope this is it....................
I'm very very sad.....................I'm running low on techno....
It's so difficult to find good eurobeat songs. They have so little online.
Maybe I should go and buy the album instead =)
Thursday, July 22, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/22/2004 11:02:00 PM |
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=Yay!=
Waking up to the sound of techno just makes me so happy.
Songs like God is a girl and 7 Years and 50days both by Groove Coverage.
*Big Smile*
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/21/2004 08:47:00 PM |
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=Weird=
The world is not the world I used to know.
Weird feelings keep hitting me and I start to question why am I alive.
The feeling sucks. This is especially so when I'm walking alone in crowded places, my mind start to wonder, and i began to feel strange, alien to the world.
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| :: Ashley | | 7/21/2004 06:39:00 PM |
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=SaBo !=
Today during recess was filled with sabo. Sg3 got the ball rolling with the sabo of posing as Kenji dedicating the song numb by linkin park to Vanessa. Haha well maybe Vanessa did not hear, but it sure made us all laugh. Poor Kenji.
Our class too did our fair bit of saboing. We dedicated "everything I do I do it for you" for Weize to Yaqi and another person in our class to another girl. Well guess we went too far. All this saboing and teasing is good but as Mr how say theres a limit. Obviously we went over the limit causing him to be pissed off and blew up. Yup I'm to be blame for this too as i did tease him about it. Guess I went too far.
Sorry Shao. Should have known my limits. Please be the smiley guy you are again. =)
" How would you feel as someone saboed you?"
Sunday, July 18, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/18/2004 09:36:00 PM |
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=Damn it..=
I missed 4d again. FUCK !!!!!
I wanted to buy 1707 yesterday cause it was yesterday date, jason's birthday and 1st time we had a huge quarrel. I should have known, jason is not the only one whos birthday fall on the 17/07, there are many others too, and since almost everyone buys 4d (Though we all know it is almost impossible to win, people still buy. 1 ticket represent a hope), the fucking number was sold out. I had waited in the queue for like 15min can at lucky plaza, its was damn long.
Anyway guess what, it came out, starter. 1 pay $250, FUCK! wanted to bet 5 big 5 small, $1250!!! argh, don't even talk about the other time when i almost strike 1st prize, 10K, and then the other time where we got the no. from a fallen mango and a taxi. Haha it almost came out starter, just that the no. was rearranged! haha, what the fuck man.
4D ah, Hor Lim Bei Ji Eh Tao Bleo Ho Seh Liao.
Anyway I guess what they say is true, the probability of you winning 4D is 50-50....................................
Its either you Win.... Or you Don't.
Saturday, July 17, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/17/2004 11:38:00 AM |
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=Coldplay - The Scientist=
Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easyIt's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
Friday, July 16, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/16/2004 07:53:00 PM |
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=Jc LiFe=
Stayed at home today cause i woke up late. Seems like everytime I ponned school, i feel guilty. Its like I only have so little time left to spend with my classmates.
Jc has so far been the most memorable. I remember Joy said I changed since entering Jc =X
We Get a glimpse of what the real world is like (backstabbers, gossipers, etc) Even some of the teachers display such bad character in them. Sigh I will miss JC, not the studies and some of the teachers though, but rather the gossips, the scandals, the new friends I made, the parties that I went to, trying to get in with my ez link.
Then theres the quarrels we had, the fun that we had together, the anger that we both went through, the rage, the sadness, the tears, the memories. The clubbing at milieu( The first time i went clubbing) then there was embassy and centro( Where we fag together for the first time) haha.
Now its time to get ready for the A's am I ready? I don't think so.
As I looked back now, I wished I was still in jc1 , because then there will be no A level to worry about, and i can just party like no tomorrow with friends like Zhanghui! haha
Whom always say go Chinablack or what to CHILL, but in the end we ended up dancing the night away and me getting pissed drunk. I remember that night at chinablack k, when you and Jolin said to go and chill. Chinablack was having a party but it was empty, furthermore it was freeflow, so........ just kept drinking. Haha Before I know it, I was drunk. Haha I did not even know I was in the toliet vomitting for like 1/2hr or was it 1hr. haha until Zh had to call a bouncer to check on me. Ohh well....memories...........
Well.............theres also the shao-ryl Tan joke, which is still going on now, and to me I think it is going out of hand, poor shao. But then again, Shao isn't it fun hahaha This is what makes Jc fun right ? hhahaha
Monday, July 12, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/12/2004 08:36:00 PM |
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=MMA=
It has been weeks since I last had my MMA lessons. Sigh! Rehan is deciding to stop cause his mum do not allow him. Fuck! Rehan now who am I going to go with?
I miss sparring, rolling on the floor, putting submission holds and also getting submission put on me. I miss MMA! Sigh.I want to join Darren fight gym, but he said its likie full so i guess have to make do with what I'm in now. Oh well, take small steps at a time.
Anyway I'm down for SSP. Guess its better for me since I'm like barely passing. Going to work harder now, I'm determined to do well. I have to.
It dawned on me that I'm going to be enlisted into the army soon. Part of me is damn excited but the other half do not know what the hell to expect. I wonder a clean freak like me who bathe 5times a day would be able to survive there. Haha.
Found this great song, I think its quite old though. Haha
Jamelia - Superstar
People always talk about (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
All the things their all about (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Write it on a piece of paper,
Got a feeling i'll see you later.
There's something bout this,
Lets keep it moving,
And if its good lets just get something cooking.
Coz i really wanna rock with you,
I'm feeling some connection to the things you do.
(you do, you do).
[Chorus:]
I dont know what it is,
That makes me feel like this,
I dont know who you are,
But you must be some kind of superstar,
Coz you got all eyes on you no matter where you are,
(you just make me wanna play)
Baby take a look around (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Everybody's getting down (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Deal with all the problems later,
Bad boys on their best behaviour.
There's something bout you,
Lets keep it moving,
And if it's good lets just get something cooking,
Coz i really wanna rock with you,
I'm feeling some connection to the things you do,
(you do, you do).
I don't know what it is,
That makes me feel like this,
I don't know who you are,
But you must be some kind of superstar,
Coz you got all eyes on you no matter where you are,
(you just make me wanna play).
I like the way your movin' (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
I just get into the groove and then (you just make me wanna play),
If you just put pen to paper (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Got that feeling i'll see you later.
Make your move, can we get a little closer,
You rock it just like you're supposed to,
Hey boy i ain't got nothing more to say,
Coz you just make me wanna play,
i don't know what it is,
That makes me feel like this,
i don't know,
Gotta be, gotta be a superstar,
All eyes on you.
Saturday, July 10, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/10/2004 03:48:00 AM |
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=Spider....=
Spiderman 2 was great! Its a must watch.
The day wasn't as good as i thought it would be.
But thank god it ended well. I really hate going home having that fucked up feeling in me.
Sigh...Why didn't you msg me? You are making my imagination run wild. Its very wild.
Jiemei!! Zhanghui came back well 2 days ago. Great to catch up with her, just chilling at the food festival opposite rouge. The Q was damn long can. Oh well at least i ate some. Its great to hear that she is doing fine in aust. Btw whats the car plate no. again? Haha think I'm going to buy 4D.
Sigh I'm feeling so tired, think I'm going to sleep already. Actually I was thinking of doing my physics homework, but i guess not now. Gd nite people.
" I will be waiting for your msg =( "
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/06/2004 06:31:00 PM |
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=You're The Boss.=
Please Your Boss And You Shall Be Rewarded.
This was the idea that "the Apprentice" was trying to get to the viewer. One of the contestant from the male team was appointed the leader of the team for this task (this was the first time i caught the show but i guess everyone must have took turns to be the leader). He made this grave mistake of not consulting what the customer wanted. Big Mistake! How in the how will you know what the client wants unless you met him right, somehow he was so excited or wanted to win the task so badly, cause the girls beat them the other time, that he felt there was no need to meet the client as time would be lost. In the end, he got the sacked.
This brings me to another point, in this world, you have to try your best to please everyone whether you liked it or not.
In school it is the teacher, no matter how bitchy they are or bastard, you still have to be nice, accept their sacastic comments.
In the office, its your boss that you have to be nice or else you get the sack.
Sigh, I remember during the driving test i made a mistake while doing parallel parking. S i requested to do it again, the fucking tester said," Don't ask me , just do it yourself." Fuck I was just letting you know, no need to get so piss right. Ahh fucker...... I was damn pissed already but fuck, that fucker determines whether i pass or fail my driving test so of course I had to endue his fucked up attitude. Sigh...
" The successful people knows how to please the right people."
Monday, July 05, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/05/2004 08:31:00 PM |
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=Doesn't She Look Pretty!=
Someone told me, actually =Girls's name= is not pretty, just that the way she dresses up makes her very pretty. No prizes for guessing shes from Stnicks. Yup yup, Just like Her, pretty smart hardworking and dedicated.
Haha Anyway so agree with you man.
Greece won, damn happy but yet sad. Happy cause i really like greece and that they help me win loads of money in their match against France. This is the only tournment that I won money. Haha 80 to be exact.
But when one win and are happy, there will be another side whom have lost and are sad. Shes sad that her Portugal did not win. Actually I was expecting port to win, guess greece exceeded all our expectation. Some may say its luck, well these people can say all they want cause greece have the trophy to prove they are the best in europe.
Cheer up Girl.
Saturday, July 03, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/03/2004 07:06:00 PM |
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=4d=
Sigh bought my timing and kimberly's timing.
Kim's timing 4324 and mine 4366. And guess what, 1st prize 4321 came out. Argh fuck!
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| :: Ashley | | 7/03/2004 12:30:00 AM |
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=Cars...=
Now, when i see cars on the road, my mind keeps drifting back to 30/6. That faithful day where i failed my driving test. Ahh fuck it.
Yes, I'm very affected by my failure. Everything was going so well for me till that day. Sigh.
Ahhh techno techno to take away my troubles........
Btw greece won czech! Yeah man. I love it when underdogs wins, especially in soccer. Somehow i had this feeling either czech or greece was going to score at the last sec of the xtra time period. Haha Sometimes gut feelings are the most accurate.
Wonder when will mixed start, and i still want my fighting glove.
Thursday, July 01, 2004
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| :: Ashley | | 7/01/2004 11:00:00 PM |
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=It keeps playing!=
The image of the tester pulling my steering wheel kept playing in my head. The whole of today my mind was on the test, what i went wrong, why was i so nervous, stuff like this.Sigh i really don't know what to say.
Still remember the tester surname, Song. Seriously song bo already man that i failed. I losing my confidence.
And you're not helping at all.
Fucking internet is so slow. Seriously those mother fuckers that made the spyware are real fuckers. I seriously curse them that they have sleepless night, the guilt of causing many problems to everyone. Fuck! Just to earn money? Just fuck off seriously, guess these fuckers didn't think about those people who do not have money to pay for servicing or a new computer.
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| :: Ashley | | 7/01/2004 03:36:00 PM |
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=Failure.=
I screwed it up, I failed. Plain and simple, i failed my driving test. Why can't I just be calm? I could do it, but fucked it up. Yes Yes you passed it the first time good for you.
Guess luck not always with me. Haha oh well, you win some you lose some ya. I shall try again on 30/7. Maybe my tester would be nicer this time.
The world is never fair.
" I will never stop trying till I succeed. If I fall, I will pick myself up. Never give up. "
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